America's Next Model-Hotel Books

[ti:America's Next Model] [ar:Hotel Books] [al:I'm Almost Happy Here, But I Never Feel At Home] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.00]America's Next Model - Hotel Books [00:21.94]I wanted us to be model citizens [00:23.38]So no one would ask us about our sins [00:25.98]But there's an intoxicating thrill that comes [00:27.89]With entering a home of love and finding skeletons in the closet [00:30.70] [00:31.97]And there's something about community that creates competition [00:34.63]And something about competition that leaves me feeling uninvited [00:37.73] [00:43.24]And the ones that stain the healthy way [00:45.14]And inspired my faith are the same ones [00:47.61]Who are ready to jump ship [00:49.21]The second thing turns to fifth and the path [00:51.53]I'm on diminishes or the lights on the sides [00:53.97]Of the road that I walk down fall dim [00:56.37]And I'm sorry darling but you were the worst of it [00:59.14] [01:05.12]I used to feel alone when I thought that nobody loved me in truth [01:08.89]But now I feel alone when I think about the way that you do [01:12.36]You told me you didn't want me to fall asleep [01:14.32]With bitterness in my heart so I guess I'll just stay awake [01:17.54] [01:19.45]You said you could tell me and only me [01:21.20]And I wouldn't fall apart but you couldn't see me stand [01:24.31]When I began to break [01:25.50] [01:26.02]And I was told that true character shows when no one's around [01:29.48]But I felt like no one wanted me around [01:31.77]And the sound of the ground being punished by my feet [01:35.00]And the solitude I find when I put ice on my shaking knees [01:38.21] [01:38.72]Resound in a profound runaround of emotionally bound conclusions [01:42.71]I came to I felt like I was going to drown [01:45.00] [01:45.56]And the bitterness you thought I felt was [01:47.66]Just your own mind confusing bitterness with acceptance [01:50.66]And fixing our broken home with wasting time [01:53.45]Because you thought it would begin [01:54.98] [01:56.90]And sometimes I hear the crack on the windowsill [01:59.97] [02:01.12]And I miss the days when it had a picture of you and I [02:04.02] [02:06.16]And I miss the emotions that came with chasing after this thrill [02:09.59] [02:10.11]But mostly I just miss being a part of your life [02:12.96] [02:17.28]And I remember when you stopped saying [02:19.06]I love you unless you were just saying I love you too [02:22.55] [02:23.29]And then I remember when even that was too hard for you [02:26.51]And I remember the day that our blue suitcase on the top [02:29.53]Shelf of my closet disappeared [02:31.78]And so did the passion you had for me here [02:34.61]And the fear of knowing you could leave me had vanished [02:37.58]But so did the reason I ever felt purpose [02:39.46] [02:40.07]And it hurts to know that you said goodbye [02:41.86]But I just thank god that you're alive [02:44.10]And I'm happy that you're happy [02:45.49]And my joy comes from knowing you were once mine [02:48.40]And I'm grateful for that [02:50.39]And even though there's so many words I wish I could take back [02:53.65]I still thank my god every time I remember you [02:56.36] [02:57.65]I still thank my god every time I remember you