Constant Collapse-Hotel Books

[ti:Constant Collapse] [ar:Hotel Books] [al:I'm Almost Happy Here, But I Never Feel At Home] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.00]Constant Collapse - Hotel Books [00:07.59]There is nothing here for me [00:09.64]But I'm here for you [00:10.61]So I will never leave [00:11.75] [00:12.39]And I'm starting to believe [00:13.60]Every time you said you loved me [00:15.53]You were just talking in your sleep [00:17.80] [00:18.63]And I said I would die for you [00:20.28]But that was before I knew [00:21.98]That it's all you wanted me to do [00:23.55]And time and time again [00:25.45]I can tell you I hate you [00:26.83]But that won't ever make it true [00:28.83] [00:29.43]Cause even during the good times [00:31.39]When you kissed me [00:32.13]I didn't want to open my eyes [00:34.14]Because I didn't want to realize [00:35.31]How hollow our love was [00:37.21]But now that it's over [00:38.99]I'm still here and all I want to know was love [00:41.65] [00:43.14]And I only talk about you in the past tense [00:45.99]Because through all of this mess [00:47.51]It's the only thing that makes sense [00:50.02]And all I do these days is want [00:52.14]But I've settled for wishful thinking [00:54.25]And neglecting and justifying my emptiness [00:57.96]Because it's easier to see what you have [00:59.84]When you can see what your neighbor lacks [01:02.48]I would give an arm and a leg [01:04.26]Just to have my arm and leg back [01:06.16] [01:06.88]And I worked so hard to help you find truth [01:09.50]Just to slowly learn that your silence says [01:12.47]Just as much about your character [01:14.16]As your words do [01:15.49] [01:23.34]We gave our love away [01:26.35]I always thought that I would be okay [01:30.07] [01:33.26]I always thought that I would be okay [01:37.37] [01:40.36]I always thought that I would be okay [01:44.31] [01:47.58]I never thought [01:49.08]I never thought I would be okay [01:52.84] [01:54.71]Through this silent note what constitutes the truth [02:00.06]Cause I can tell myself [02:01.57] [02:02.21]Time and time again [02:03.97]That I'm not making sense of this [02:07.87] [02:13.01]And that cross around your neck [02:15.11]Was more hollow than your head [02:17.15] [02:17.86]But I still just wanted to follow you to bed [02:20.11] [02:27.66]I never listened to my own voice [02:30.21]Maybe some of us embrace death [02:32.60]But some of us don't have a choice [02:34.81] [02:35.38]And maybe I'm both because I didn't choose this [02:38.84]But that doesn't mean I'm gonna change [02:40.92] [02:42.21]Because I never do and you never did [02:45.32] [02:45.83]And it scared me away [02:47.54] [02:50.40]And that's why she still cuts your skin for you [02:53.27] [02:53.80]And that's why that she's still in you and her name is Acceptance [02:59.12]And she used to kill me and now she is killing you [03:02.77] [03:06.40]And through all this stress and carried out disastrous distress [03:10.59] [03:11.73]I've learned that I really don't like you [03:14.46] [03:15.20]But I forgive you [03:16.22] [03:17.00]Because I love you [03:18.00] [03:19.18]I love you