Lose One Friend-Hotel Books

[ti:Lose One Friend] [ar:Hotel Books] [al:I'm Almost Happy Here, But I Never Feel At Home] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.00]Lose One Friend - Hotel Books [00:02.13]Watching your muscles ache from the stress in your back [00:05.30]Waiting for bones to break from the weight of what you lack [00:08.71]I would spend all my time helping you find truth [00:11.47] [00:11.98]And it really cuts like a knife knowing I can't save you [00:15.13] [00:15.65]Because saying goodbye hurts the worst when you know it's the final word [00:19.30]It comes across like a curse and I can't believe you said it first [00:24.80]So now the final word on the final page [00:27.77]Of the final chapter of this narrative we made [00:30.85]Is my weak conscious whispering words through my mouth [00:34.82]The very words I prayed would never come out [00:38.27]I kept clinging onto the past and hoped the future would be the same [00:43.36]We would cry and laugh knowing the past would not remain [00:47.40]And I would argue with God every night I would lie awake [00:51.67]And lie to myself hoping all of this was fake [00:55.70] [00:56.32]Because I got a new perspective on general anesthetics [00:59.11] [00:59.89]When you finally went to see Jesus [01:02.57]And all your family learned how to believe in a void [01:05.85]Because that's all that they could see in us [01:08.29] [01:09.35]Cigarette smoke and broken words [01:12.12]My heard became the platform for everything they hated the most [01:16.31]And I stayed clear of the lack [01:18.35]Hoping somebody would come by and cut this rope [01:21.00] [01:21.74]Your apartment got so empty when you moved to that city with the steets of gold [01:27.59]And I know what you meant when you said this room can grow so terribly cold [01:32.10] [01:35.00]And I wrestled with the idea of taking your place [01:37.48]But I know that if anyone deserves a break from this world of pain [01:42.85]It's you it's not me [01:45.40] [01:49.64]And I'm still asleep [01:51.08] [02:12.75]It's not about being there for me it's about respecting me enough [02:17.02]To tell me why you're not [02:18.91]So I'll just slip back into my sleep [02:21.31]There's a demon in my casket and I think that we've fallen in love [02:25.26] [02:26.06]And most nights I wish it was you