The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit-La Dispute

[ti:The Most Beautiful Bitter Frui] [ar:La Dispute] [al:Wildlife] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.00]The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit - La Dispute [00:34.01]After sundown before sleeping [00:35.81] [00:36.61]I am the worst of me I am a mess of these [00:39.41]Old themes and the murmur of half-dreams [00:41.22]Whisper seductively and stage scenes [00:44.25] [00:44.80]It's fear fiction these visions [00:47.08] [00:47.61]Caught somewhere between delusion and prophesy [00:49.44] [00:50.26]What I haven't done what I've wanted to [00:53.16]What I fear you have [00:54.52]Becomes reality here [00:55.41]Bright lights in the young night keep to the beat [00:58.70]A classic party scene crowded and interesting [01:00.75] [01:01.31]No love no life no history [01:03.59] [01:04.48]Just touch just chemistry just [01:06.77]A roaring undercurrent simple and sensory [01:09.18] [01:09.78]Young bodies warm skin perfect symmetry and [01:12.93]It's a moment harmless It's energy [01:15.41]It's like medicine [01:16.91]It's self-discovery [01:17.66] [01:18.25]See all the secrets I keep why are they secrets [01:21.21]It's only temporary that fleeting feeling of warmth [01:23.91]Just a flash before the line gets blurry [01:26.27]Between a longing for more than what the body wants now and [01:29.82]What the body wants now more than anything [01:31.72] [01:32.35]Was it integrity that kept my hands to myself or [01:35.46]Just the thought of getting too far ahead of you [01:37.85]Was it that I got too tired of the consequence [01:40.42] [01:41.51]Or was I just scared [01:42.96] [01:43.62]I only know I never wanted to get left behind [01:45.90] [01:46.53]No pauses not a second guess [01:49.25]First a swaying then a stumble then a swagger [01:51.96]They're just movements towards feeling It doesn't matter [01:55.44]Neither hesitates to carry on a kind of energy [01:58.57] [01:59.12]Sweat and block out everything to [02:00.70]Find every aperture and compel the animal parts [02:03.44]Fan flames taste fruit taste bitter fruit [02:06.12]Just trying to learn how all the wires in the body work [02:09.03]Just trying to feel it out it's like medicine [02:11.31] [02:11.84]Trap the healing in whatever bed they end up in [02:14.76]I want to feel it out I want to know how it works [02:17.93]I want to know if it was worth it to worry [02:20.28]About the ghosts I feared would haunt the memory [02:22.97]About the damage that [02:24.07]I'm sure the fear has done to me now [02:26.12]I want to know what it is [02:27.50]In me that won't follow through [02:28.85]Those nights the instinct takes a hold of me and pushes too [02:31.27]Maybe it's only that I've never gotten over you [02:33.94] [02:35.35]Or am I still scared [02:36.63] [02:37.48]I see the church steps a vision [02:39.75] [02:40.43]Is there fiction in this one too [02:42.55]It's true I've made a tale of it here still [02:46.90]It's a little unclear who's been haunting who [02:49.47]And time can be such a funny thing always moving to the future [02:53.91]Glorifying the past and amplifying the pain in frames and glass [02:57.90] [03:01.29]So was our touch half as sacred as I've made it seem [03:04.42]Or just another fabrication of a half-dream [03:06.56] [03:07.08]Just those chemicals the adolescent love [03:10.06]Just us trying to grasp onto meaning [03:12.52]Onto a purpose [03:14.05]Onto a sense that [03:15.40] [03:16.14]Something spiritual releases when the feeling hits [03:19.28] [03:21.19]And when the feeling hits [03:22.66] [03:24.65]And in that moment sparks and harps play out [03:27.64]A sweeping melody through fog and fantasy [03:30.39]And in that moment there's an honesty instinctive and pure but [03:33.46]It departs like it came rapid and bearing no more [03:36.03]Than fleeting ecstasy of natural harmony [03:37.76] [03:38.32]They fear the notes being played and try to sing along [03:41.52]Don't be ashamed be free to the feeling Don't be ashamed keep feeling [03:45.80] [03:46.70]But find it a body that makes sense [03:49.41] [03:50.50]I've felt it