Lesley (Explicit)-Dave/Ruelle

[ti:] [ar:] [al:] [by:时间戳工具V2.0_20200810] [offset:0] [00:10.41]Look [00:11.28]They say the unit works in a strange way [00:14.97]And it must be true because we ain't from the same background or same place [00:19.38]But me and lesley ended up on that same train [00:22.71]I'm talking everyday I used to wake up around seven or eight [00:26.55]To catch the 906 from norbury station [00:30.00]Two different worlds in the same location and [00:33.33]One day we ended up speaking [00:35.58]And I would talk about college she would talk about meetings [00:38.61]And how she's planning on leaving [00:40.86]How she hates what she does but she needs it [00:43.74]I asked her what she was doing it's the weekend [00:46.38]And she said she said [00:48.57]I don't know myself [00:51.27]I don't know myself no more [00:54.63]She used to be the life of the party for true [00:57.75]And now she going out hardly ever [00:59.91]Her man got her in the yard forever [01:01.89]And her friends wanna help but it's hard to tell her [01:04.41]Hard to let her know that her man's possessive and aggressive [01:08.76]And she can't even see it but for them [01:10.62]It's clear as day she's in a situation [01:13.23]Her friend hannah had a man that was manipulative [01:15.84]So she could see it from a mile off [01:18.33]Turtleneck jumpers makeup around the eye spots [01:21.36]All the signs were there [01:22.92]But lesley made it seem a light affair [01:25.08]Said it wasn't right to share [01:26.76]Her boyfriend he was a mystery man [01:28.95]I didn't know much about him but he's been in the can [01:31.50]Name's jason he's a bad boy with no reasoning [01:34.95]To be honest I don't know what les' sees in him [01:37.11]'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart [01:40.35]But they've both got demons and a deep past [01:42.99]You know opposites attract apparently [01:45.15]I never heard her talk about her family ever uh-uh [01:49.05]He was all that she had [01:50.25]Until they had an argument and he stopped calling her back [01:53.04]And I don't know if there was more to the story than that [01:55.71]'Cause she plays things down but according to that [01:58.32]He went missing one day in the morning he ran [02:00.87]She's doing overtime struggling affording the flat [02:03.78]'Til she lost her job it f**ked all of her plans [02:06.45]Couldn't pay the rent borrowing and calling for cash [02:09.38]But hannah she was there for her cared for her [02:12.81]When I saw les' she told me [02:14.85]I don't know myself [02:17.55]I don't know myself no more [02:20.67]Les' saying I got nothing to live for [02:22.74]It's been raw but david I ain't never been this poor [02:25.59]There's no income my boyfriend left me [02:28.32]So how the f**k am I going to survive when this kid's born [02:31.32]I said it's a blessing as mad as it is [02:33.42]And les' I never even knew that you were having a kid [02:36.09]Bro she's four months pregnant young and neglected [02:39.15]Single but I don't think she wants to accept it [02:41.76]So she's still texting exes trying to get this [02:44.70]Back on track but I don't think that she gets it [02:49.80]It's emotional obsession clinical depression [02:52.62]Life is a lesson [02:56.01]And you ain't got to sit and cry [02:58.11]And lesley living in this gift called life [03:00.51]There's no better gift than the gift of life [03:03.15]So can you handle it [03:08.79]I don't know myself [03:11.49]I don't know myself no more [03:15.30]But that changed her perspective [03:17.07]Late in December her baby's expected to drop [03:19.98]She's accepted excited electric pumped [03:23.07]Only got to wait a few months [03:24.84]Her and hannah had lunch [03:26.52]Told her she's pregnant [03:28.68]And they're the closest of bredrins [03:30.33]So she didn't stunt to tell her I think that it's an error [03:33.27]You ain't a mum for a day you're a mum forever [03:35.97]Whatever and you and jason break up whenever [03:38.76]If I'm honest that's something you should have done together [03:41.34]She doesn't know that her and jason are going out again [03:43.80]And jason doesn't know that lesley's carrying a child for them [03:46.83]She had daydreams of settling down with jason better 'cause now they're together it's wild [03:51.63]Feeling like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em [03:53.88]'Cause while she's letting him down but most of them are never around [03:57.09]She calls hannah the next day [04:00.81]Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her [04:03.18]That she's getting back together with an ex-flame [04:06.48]So she left her a voicemail [04:08.43]Like yo hannah it's les' can you call me back [04:12.03]I wanna talk about the baby you me jason all of that [04:16.68]I've been feeling like I need to get my aura back [04:19.62]I used to be so f**king confident [04:22.17]But these days I swear that- [04:24.30]I don't know my self [04:27.00]I don't know myself no more [04:30.33]It's 330 lesley was meant to get a scan [04:32.79]But today I think she's going home early [04:35.16]Tryna talk to jason tell him 'bout the kid [04:37.38]Addressing any reservations [04:39.27]Have that conversation [04:40.53]Middle of the summer and it's raining [04:42.45]Waiting at the train station [04:44.55]Hella cancellations [04:45.78]So she gets a taxi sitting in a backseat [04:48.66]Blue jean jacket and a maxi [04:50.61]Actually tired and her legs are aching [04:52.86]Touched the destination [04:54.27]Way faster than the cab driver's estimation [04:57.54]She put the key in the door [04:58.95]She couldn't believe what she see on the floor [05:01.74]Some size five trainers raging [05:04.17]Tears in her eyes but it's cool 'cause they must be the neighbors [05:07.35]And jason's in the bedroom fully naked [05:10.17]Lesley running up the stairs but she's making noise [05:13.44]And she can hear jason's voice [05:15.27]Saying hide in the closet [05:16.68]But he's made his choice [05:17.91]So she bursts in saying what kind of person would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend [05:23.01]Jason saying what the f**k you're pregnant what the f**k [05:26.85]You weren't even gonna tell me I mean what the f**k [05:29.40]What do you want from us [05:31.56]Nah you ain't in love you just wanna love [05:35.04]Lesley telling jason I don't wanna love [05:37.59]I don't want a you and I i don't want an us [05:40.29]And also I don't wanna talk loads [05:42.72]One more line before I dash like morse code [05:45.33]Open the wardrobe [05:49.17]And jason's on the edge [05:50.73]'I just wanna see if she was prettier than me slimmer than me [05:53.82]Maybe your baby's similar to me [05:55.74]Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me fitter than me [05:59.22]To satisfy you quicker than me [06:00.93]I got your baby in my stomach and you did this to me [06:03.60]What did I ever do to you for you to finish with me [06:06.33]I didn't believe my girls but they were thinking of me [06:09.06]And give it to me the wardrobe give me the key [06:11.88]I was pulling up the door but jason's bigger than me [06:14.55]Literally I remember viscerally [06:17.16]Jason pulling from behind me now he's gripping on me [06:19.80]White flashes eye gashes when he's hitting me see [06:22.50]I just wanted to disappear I wasn't living for me [06:25.38]Physically I shut the f**king doors quick as can be [06:27.99]He's outside asking why I made him do what he did [06:30.66]Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in [06:33.09]I'm feeling afraid barricaded with a chair in the handle [06:36.03]I'm hearing sirens but I just wanna run away but I can't [06:38.82]Jason's gone by the time police are comin' [06:40.89]They saw that ain't no one else in the house [06:42.78]And feds are running through the door shouting [06:44.82]We have reports of an argument with a woman' [06:46.86]There's blood all over the floor and it's splattered onto the wall [06:50.13]Les-ley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds [06:52.26]She's deep in the stress and it's meters above her head [06:54.99]If anything she couldn't even say anything [06:58.14]But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is [07:00.63]So they call an ambulance lesley didn't plan for this [07:03.39]Police are in the room tryna find the missing piece of the puzzle [07:06.33]Until they stumble on something that's kind of random [07:08.52]It's a phone in the wardrobe [07:13.92]They had five missed phone calls from jason [07:16.11]And also a couple other numbers so they thinking that it's no help [07:20.91]Until they play the voicemail like [07:22.71]Yo hannah it's les' can you call me back [07:26.19]I wanna talk about the baby you me jason all of that [07:30.84]I've been feeling like I need to get my aura back [07:33.69]I used to be so f**king confident [07:36.30]But these days I swear that [07:38.46]I don't know my self [07:41.13]I don't know myself no more [07:44.13]She felt sick to her stomach she started panicking [07:46.68]Mind rattling tryna understand what hannah did [07:49.38]Battling the shame 'cause the situation embarrassing [07:51.93]She's tryna fathom it betrayed by her own garrison [07:54.75]Meanwhile she's on the bed tryna manage this [07:57.36]Piercing pain in the stomach she couldn't handle it [08:01.05]Now she's waiting for an ambulance [08:03.15]Look [08:06.57]And I know she's strong but when I heard about [08:08.73]What happened I was over-shocked [08:10.32]Her nose was gone her jaw line shattered and rocked [08:13.14]They said her baby was the reason she was holding on [08:15.84]She dozing off doctors getting no response [08:18.63]Her heart rate slowing down and they don't know what's wrong [08:21.27]Picked her up got her out the home [08:23.34]And onto the stretcher for good measures but she's fading out oh [08:27.24]She took damage to the brain [08:28.86]And now she's in a coma as we speak [08:30.81]But I ain't sure if she can make it out [08:32.76]You see this time that I'm taking out [08:34.65]To tell you the story is more than a song or track [08:37.55]It's a message to a woman with a toxic man [08:40.02]I'm begging you to get support if you're lost or trapped [08:42.87]I understand that I can never understand [08:45.48]And I ain't saying that it's easy but it must be right [08:48.18]Some of your sisters aunties mums or wives [08:51.03]Are f**ked aside and they will never touch on why [08:53.58]I'm touched 'cause I've seen women that I love though like [08:56.37]Cry little red tears through a bloodshot eye [08:58.86]This s**t's awful no matter what culture it ain't normal [09:02.10]Men try and twist it make it seem like it's your fault [09:05.22]In that train full of people that you're taking [09:07.59]How many lesleys are running from their jasons [09:18.81]Angel without wings [09:23.13]Like the day without the night to bring her peace [09:28.53]A song without a voice [09:31.92]A spark without a flame [09:34.74]A child without a name [09:38.13]Oh it's just wrong [09:41.58]Like an ocean without a shore [09:44.76]A soldier without a war [09:47.16]How can we do this anymore [09:51.87]A song without a voice [09:54.39]A spark without a flame [09:57.60]A child without a name [10:00.96]Oh it's just wrong [10:23.16]Well we've made a massive amount of progress [10:26.25]In this last year haven't we [10:29.40]Feels like a long journey [10:32.82]And I must say it's been a pleasure [10:34.86]To watch you mature and grow in thought [10:38.49]And in your career and life [10:41.46]You've opened up immensely [10:44.67]I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions [10:48.24]But you know you can never stop learning about yourself [10:54.72]So you're always welcome [10:58.44]I'm just happy you're at a place now [11:00.09]Where you feel you understand your emotions [11:05.19]And are in control