All of Me-Joe Budden/Emanny/Ransom

All of Me - Joe Budden [Emanny:] I give you my all... but it seems like that's not enough* Now you can get all of me A lot of things have changed from what I see Is this the way it's s'possed to be? [Budden:] Are you in that mood yet? One mo' 'gain ARE YOU IN THAT MOOD YET? Look, they say tomorrow's not promised, but if it was I wouldn't get open Wouldn't get suits them shits was made to be broken 'Member comin up dudes talkin bout hoes, boastin I was just a Juvenile movin in Slow Motion I dropped outta school to be a dude with mad jewelry Once I got it sh*t wasn't even cool to me I dreamt of condos and video vixens Until I learned most girls in videos is pidgeons I just wanted the world to see that I was for real with it Wanted a deal, I got it and couldn't deal with it I want me and my old homeboys to still kick it I wish they saw me as Mouse and not a meal ticket Let the beat play I wish I could see a day with no he say, she say, just wanna see Trey Wanna play the hood and not f**k with the toasters Middle child, wish me and my brother was closer I wanna scream at her, catch myself before I start to And then remember it takes two people to argue All she do is provoke me All I do is diss her All I did was shake her She say that I hit her She just takin everything I say out of context I'm tryin not to black, I'm like a ni**a with a complex Was mad as a F**K, didn't even show it Yesterday was better off, didn't even know it Complete role reversal so it's usless these days TV got real, music went fake Please help her for God's sake When I proposed to the game I figured life was merry 5 years later I'm feelin like Tyler Perry Maybe I'm exhausted, maybe I just lost it Maybe I should pick up a pen and try 'n force it Same old story, guts and no glory They tryna low ball me, do him like Joe Torre I reintroduced myself to the world, I'm JERZ I'm a artist, I paint pictures, I don't rhyme words More than a rapper I pay attention to detail But how I do in retail tells me if I prevail Leadin all the way see these trials and tribulations Foul situations with some mild stipulations I feel like being a addict cause it hurts But somethin 'bout dude makes bad sh*t worse Look, it's three types of niggas in this world ya know So you either gon' make sh*t happen OR Watch sh*t happen OR Not know what happened So I couldn't just sit there like 'F**K rappin' It's dudes with problems I couldn't imagine havin If I had to have 'em I couldn't fathom me lastin, like I used to bump into Tammy in the club Few of them, she even helped a ni**a get in See a person long enough you know you bound to get fly with em Care for em, be more than high and by with em It's been a while, I can't front like I ain't phased She was my reality check, cause we the same age I mean she put on a show that you CAN'T stage She made the sh*t sound effortless I was damn near in tears checkin my messages I got goosebumps all over my skin She said "Mouse I highly doubt that I'll ever see you again Hope everything is well kid You see I'm just findin out I have a brain tumor but I never felt it The doctor's givin me three weeks to live Not three weeks til I die, that's three weeks to give I just wanna tell you that I love you and I care I wish you all the best throughout the rest of your career"... And then she broke into tears I pressed 7, took the phone from my ears Sometimes the simplest of things people need it But I ain't call back in fear of being speechless What was I to put her at ease with? I picked a real bad time to be stradegic I think my lifes bad, pickin up the pieces Some folk already got they appointment to see Jesus In this world full of diseases I've learned not to bite my tongue or have siezures Depression tells me I suck So I reply "I ain't here cause I fell down, I'm here cause I got up" And then I'm goin back and forth with Ransom Sh*t came outta nowhere, was real random According to him, I'm responsible for Jerz too "I never helped niggas? " How the F**K you think they heard you? Muhf**ka's got a lot of nerve duke I was the ni**a believed in you spittin Had to con the industry just so they would listen But go 'head, you just gon' wreck yourself How was you protectin me, you can't protect yourself Keep the lies to a minimal, just read your interview And can't help but ask what's gotten into dude Media training but he don't know how that go It help you come across not soundin like an ASSHOLE In my past though been to jail, I ain't enjoy it So why would I stand behind the mic and exploit it? I ain't ig'nant, just because I exercise spiritually They try to ignore how I exercise lyrically I thought I had a great job Back when niggas loved the culture, wasn't in it for the money like a A-Rod Even when I'm spittin bout current events It's a sublime sayin 'Who's more current than him? ' So I'm wonderin, if a higher power tryna underman When you shoot for the stars, sometimes you gonna jam I ain't been to Summer Jam I learned from Lupe: when you Dumb It Down it's just harder to understand 2008, foes is still near me So you can think I'm tight as F**K, I'm still weary The Geto Boys say it's all in the mind Certain wounds only heal over time No shame in my game No pain no gain And since I ain't see a +prophet+ I figured God would stop it Waitin on a alley, niggas just won't lob it Still a risk taker lemme put it in words: Can't steal second base and keep your foot on first Been about 10 years since I was high off the angel Now I'm walkin side by side with an angel In front of my eyes that prize keep gettin dangled But can't grab at it, my pride is being strangled Workin shorty's nerves like a personal trainer But it's me, it's personal, it ain't her Friends keep tellin me "leave her, " I won't Cause she sees somethin in me that I DON'T And I see somethin in her that ya'll won't If u never been in love don't tell me I'm wrong See I preach gratitude, she keeps an attitude Argue long enough and that sh*t becomes laughable My norm now since my heart is so natural Wish I could dwell into all them niggas after you So not compatible, that we compatible It's nothin else in this worl that we would rather do Anybody out there relate to my pain? Turn the music up let me know that I'm sane We broke up, b**ches was starin' at my chain Dude was f**kin you but starin' at my name But we ain't gotta entertain all that Back like we never left, we overcame all that F**K who made better tacos or who a** fatter It's different now, right now, none of that matters Keep bringin it up it's gon' backlash us Why am I meetin' so many backstabbers? Why whenever I'm bout to crash I go faster? Past is a disaster When your house is see through, learn to close your eyes incase the Glass shatters Just sayin, it's always a million more pages when my stupid a** keep Thinkin I'm on the last chapter No tit for tat, I ain't equipped for that That and New York, chit chat with a Midget Mack Cause I get older... (trails off)