Dear Diary-Joe Budden/Ransom

[ti:Dear Diary] [ar:Joe Budden] [al:Mood Muzik 3.75] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.24]It's 5 o'clock I'm just getting home [00:02.70] [00:03.32]Romaing all my owe [00:05.07]What can I tell [00:08.00]Since we all straven [00:08.87]What can I tell [00:10.96]The soundtrack to my life is like CNN first shut [00:14.16] [00:14.68]Images like CNN but worse shut [00:17.10]I would down the whole Pinot Gris [00:19.34]But I'd see the Group Home without the Premo beats [00:22.06]And it hurts my soul [00:23.90]I'm a Warrior so though the odds is against a ni**a [00:26.63]Dirk gon' choke [00:27.85]Some people confide in the person that they sleep with [00:30.91]I've learned there's no such thing as a secret oh [00:34.21]I can't describe the feeling I get [00:36.06]You was riding shotgun I was wheeling the whip [00:38.70]Shut I even let you rock out [00:40.68]Being Bill Belichick [00:42.02]Tapin' from the sidelines stealin' my shut [00:44.27]But dawg you was like a mini me [00:46.19]Mocked me envied me turns out [00:48.41]You was blowin' hot air kenny G [00:50.69]But you was cool accepted you instantly [00:53.40]Not a groupie but you had a few tendencies [00:56.06] [00:56.94]And though we share a few memories [00:58.78]A couple wrong turns'll turn a friend to an enemy [01:01.66]See phony people like phony people [01:04.02]Even you could be mistaken if you phone these people [01:06.74]Look when you invite the nerds to the cool table [01:10.27]Shut is bound to break up like a pool table [01:12.97]So wack dudes'll start feeling like the shut [01:15.28]And you thinkin' it's you it's really where you sit [01:17.97]Or maybe you was neglected [01:18.99] [01:19.56]'Cause when you take the front down and strip a ni**a naked [01:22.14]He's dying to be accepted oh [01:24.17]I did that just the way you was [01:26.11]Now you a stranger nothing like the way you was [01:29.14]But uh you not real you not Rachel [01:31.94]You not worm you not dill shut you not chill [01:35.34] [01:36.01]I thought you had some [01:36.98] [01:37.49]F**k the fake shut [01:38.38]I'm really feel that you tryna screw me [01:40.49]And you a little smarter than the average dude [01:42.95]So it took a ni**a just a little longer to see [01:45.74]They tried to warn me [01:46.90]Fought with my girl erry night about you [01:49.18] [01:49.77]Shut only hurts 'cause she was right about you [01:52.01]She run around wanting to shoot you the fair one [01:54.61]I keep telling her "chill I don't care none" [01:57.84]I got another side I never showed to you [02:00.80]The side where everybody is disposable [02:03.33]See relationships are never a threat [02:05.25]'Cause I'll erase the history and act like we never met [02:08.39]Become done giving a f**k and done calling [02:11.12]I got your e-mail I was done way before then oh [02:14.30]Dear Diary I don't wanna keep shut inside of me [02:17.40]I'd rather just speak to you privately [02:20.04]Maybe it's my mood as far as I can see [02:22.65]There's really no point in having this guy with me [02:25.34]Change from the days of us getting in your truck [02:27.84]It's bigger than one song it's bigger than a buck [02:30.56]It's bigger than me bigger than buck [02:32.46]Bigger than voodoo it's bigger than luck [02:34.64]Shut it's bigger than us [02:36.03]I always call niggas fools for wanting to learn the hard way [02:39.28]When [02:39.63]When I'm really the fool for tryna teach 'em [02:42.21]When the blinds leading the blind you cant reach 'em [02:44.73]If niggas ain't as hungry as you then why feed 'em [02:47.59]Niggas ain't tryna be lead then why lead 'em [02:50.31]Having big problems with your dogs why breed 'em [02:53.25]I'll keep my part up keep my guard up [02:55.92]Was like Thundercats but changed faster than Cheetara [02:58.80]This a small part of a larger issue [03:01.45]Sometimes acceptance is so hard to get to [03:03.99]But we all equal no one lower or above me [03:07.35]I love my team just as much as they love me [03:09.93]If not more [03:11.08]If I turn the knob we all going through the door [03:13.79]I ain't coming back for y'all [03:15.22] [03:15.84]The whole crew feel the same as me [03:17.85]How could you ignore something so plain to see [03:20.67]I'm being ig'nant that get on my nerves every minute [03:23.71]What's plain to some is really Burberry printed [03:26.70]Being so real sometimes is a slow kill [03:29.23]We was one squad you broke out like Mike Schofield [03:32.54]I want fillet mignon you want oatmeal [03:35.16]Add up our differences equals up to no meal [03:38.25]No mills yup no deal why you gotta chase shut [03:41.92]To know it's no thrills [03:43.18]For real a ni**a still beefin' with his baby momma [03:45.97]But [03:46.26]Only thing my baby ain't a baby no more [03:48.52]Hit her on my space maybe she ain't shady no more [03:51.41]Sent old girl a message no reply but she read it [03:54.27]Some things are so embedded and our heads is [03:56.67]Looking for O's but get X's dealing wit ya exes [04:00.17]I was one long line away from the Tetris [04:02.86]She sent me the L that sent me to hell [04:05.45]To the point where I was ignoring my son [04:07.42]I don't see him don't talk to him [04:09.38]I don't greet him don't walk with him [04:11.64]But I pay for him like he's an object [04:13.96]No matter how right I am in court I can't object [04:17.11]Dear Diary how could she deny me [04:19.62]How she go to bed without her f**king with her psyche [04:22.32] [04:22.84]Is she wrong using him so I can come back or [04:25.72]Or am I wrong for wishing I could get my cum back [04:28.20]Looking for sun all I see is the hail [04:30.34] [04:30.94]How I'm gon' trust All I see is betrayal [04:33.50]It's like they keep trying more and more to subdue me [04:36.34]And only you understand signed by yours truly [04:39.19] [04:41.71]Ai Oh [04:50.41] [04:52.98]Ai oh [04:59.89] [05:00.40]Dear Diary - Joe Budden