Harder to love me-Nia Nkuna

[ti:Harder to love me] [ar:Nia Nkuna] [al:Mixed signals] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.00]Harder to love me - Nia Nkuna [00:10.02]You only show up when I'm glowing [00:12.77]Guess I'm your favorite kind of broken [00:14.67]Said you like me better when I'm not okay [00:17.37]Like I'm a mirror for your drama play [00:19.46]You sip the silence like a champagne [00:22.31]Watch me unravel, call it growing pains [00:24.31]But I'm not a plot twist in your pain parade [00:26.56]I'm done being your halfway escape [00:36.55]Used to keep my voice down, now I talk loud [00:41.35]Used to beg for love, now I walk out [00:46.40]If I don't shrink, is it too much? [00:48.80]If I don't bend, is it not love? [00:55.75]Does it get harder to love me when I finally love myself? [01:00.65]When I stop dimming my fire just to fit inside your hell? [01:05.45]Now I wear my heartbreak like a jacket [01:08.35]Zip it up and dance right past it [01:10.55]If I'm too much for you, that's on you [01:12.75]Cause I'm done making me smaller for two [01:20.55]I used to crave your validation [01:23.25]Now I crave real conversations [01:25.10]You ghosted me and called it space [01:27.45]But I've outgrown your hiding place [01:29.60]I'm not the girl that breaks in silence [01:32.40]I turn my pain into defiance [01:34.40]You lost the game you made me play [01:36.75]And I don't care what you think today [01:47.30]Used to cry in whispers, now I sing loud [01:52.15]Used to wait on closure, now I bounce out [01:57.20]If I don't fold, is it too real? [01:59.60]If I don't chase, is that how you feel? [02:06.35]Does it get harder to love me when I finally love myself? [02:11.20]When I stop dimming my fire just to fit inside your hell? [02:16.05]Now I wear my heartbreak like a jacket [02:18.95]Zip it up and dance right past it [02:21.15]If I'm too much for you, that's on you [02:23.35]Cause I'm done making me smaller for two [02:26.30]You said you've changed, yeah [02:29.30]Yeah, that's the point [02:32.30]I'm not your toy, I got my own voice [02:35.30]Don't need fixing, just distance [02:37.70]Your love was a maze with no exits [02:40.40]I took the long way back to me [02:43.20]Now I dance with clarity [02:45.30]Your name's just dust in my rearview [02:50.30]I got me, and that feels brand new [02:55.30]Does it get harder to love me now that I don't need your help? [03:00.30]When I stop breaking in pieces just to put you before myself? [03:05.30]Now I wear my heartbreak like a jacket [03:08.20]Zip it up and dance right past it [03:10.40]If I'm too much for you, that's the truth [03:12.70]Then I'm better off dancing without you