The Philosophy of Suicide-Elephant

[ti:The Philosophy of Suicide] [ar:Elephant] [al:The Extinction Paradox] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.00]The Philosophy of Suicide - Elephant [00:11.88]What went wrong today Everything is so controlled [00:14.53]Ideals were abraded by reason [00:17.54]Impotent dreams on an overcast day [00:20.28]Out of the depths I have cried and no one has heard [00:23.15]Gods and heroes and imaginary companions [00:26.20]Unrequited promises no longer suffice [00:29.05]Rhythm to repetition perseverance to insanity [00:31.93]Just because you're alive doesn't mean others should want you [00:35.03]Knowledge is temptation I repulse myself [00:37.71]On the borderline between neurosis and psychosis [00:40.73]Dissecting my actions instead of being in the present [00:43.75]I dissociated my fear and allowed it to advise me [00:46.52]I am not a messiah I am a man in trouble [00:49.09]An unbearable waste with no excuse [00:50.23] [00:52.18]Pathetic and scared by grotesque loneliness [00:55.21]Morality wasted in isolation [00:58.27]Tomorrow's smile never comes for me [01:01.07]Ambitious but incapable weak without direction [01:03.89]Another spring prepares me for another summer alone [01:06.79]And there is no return from the killing hour [01:09.82]To be honest it is not this world I hate [01:12.69]But the circumstances which shaped my mediocrity [01:14.97] [01:15.62]Fading in an abyss of inaction said the mirror [01:18.46]This is not a work of fiction this is my life [01:21.47]Rape the children for their own good [01:24.40]Scars awaken a tragic sense of destiny [01:27.28]Hope is deception born in alienation [01:29.58]To the frantic throbbing of my own heart [01:32.69] [01:33.30]Sorry does nothing objectifying me with pity [01:35.92]Removing yourself from blame feigning innocence [01:38.80]If those who find me claim to love me [01:40.36]Where were they when I needed them [01:42.35]Some friends would have been nice [01:45.05] [03:06.50]Always anticipating never receiving I wait [03:09.11]I may see her soon and I will never leave her again [03:12.05]Perhaps next year perhaps one day perhaps never [03:14.86]I am not a child yet I am so inferior [03:18.02]At last I reach out but am I too late [03:20.75]Ideation of a choice as I pace in agitation [03:23.57]I just wish I could go back and reverse this mistake [03:26.42]I wanted to dance with her one last time [03:29.40]Denial anger bargaining depression [03:32.26]Anger depression bargaining anger [03:35.19]Depression and anger in a cycle of envy [03:38.01]I did nothing to deserve this I did nothing [03:40.31] [03:41.02]Stop this please I'm in pain [03:43.41] [03:44.12]Why doesn't anyone care [03:46.26] [03:46.91]And who will tell her that I've died [03:49.16] [03:49.83]And how will she know how I suffered [03:52.05] [03:52.86]At last I surrender to tears [03:55.67]As I trace my veins [03:57.63] [03:58.73]All I can think of is her [04:00.62] [04:01.51]And how much it hurts [04:04.24] [04:04.76]Help me help me [04:10.21]Help me help me [04:16.04]Help me help me [04:21.81]Help me help me