Sunken Shores of Fatal Symmetry-Elephant

[ti:Sunken Shores of Fatal Symmetry] [ar:Elephant] [al:The Extinction Paradox] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.00]Sunken Shores of Fatal Symmetry - Elephant [00:12.00]What naivete could have caused such desecration [00:14.58]One autumnal night I detached and buried myself [00:17.52]I drove out the sun and killed all growth [00:20.37]And worshipped the trauma that scarred my destiny [00:23.24]I became guilts phobias neuroses compulsions [00:26.16]Gifted with wings yet lacking knowledge of their use [00:29.07]Mundane expectations and the sheen of despair [00:31.95]Potential ruined by terrible circumstance [00:34.93]Almost a year is lost and there are more days ahead [00:37.79]Whilst my own limbs become cumbersome and weary [00:40.76]Delusional pathetic spastic and limp [00:43.64]Repressing conflict and ineluctable meltdown [00:45.97] [00:46.65]Denying emotion pleasure becomes routine [00:49.44]Sweltering stifling blighting decrepitude [00:52.40]Disguised by layers of useless humor [00:55.15]My laughter is hateful to deprecate the optimist [00:58.15]All my heroes are dead if they ever existed [01:01.08]Retreating into patterns of defensive isolation [01:03.91]The narcotic apathy of daydreams and fantasy [01:06.76] [01:07.30]And the pain is overwhelming [01:09.84]I am not a philosopher but a narcissist in a fugue state [01:12.73]Vapors of the past normalize into my ghosts [01:15.51]I framed the walls and mountains that enclose my sanity [01:18.52]Suffocating the senses and the instincts of power [01:21.34]Adapting to the dark I became anxious of the light [01:24.27]Movements slow and fragile eyes dull as a mask [01:27.23]Reacting to abandonment by abandoning myself [01:30.02]A derelict child upon gargantuan shores [01:33.05]Submerged within a delayed mind alone with my hostility [01:36.00]Only to guess at the depths of the caldera [01:38.92]Hiding in hurts using them as an excuse [01:41.83]The cringing incongruity the victim on display [01:44.73]Incapable of even sleep [01:47.52]Memories of joy are forgotten [01:50.49]Embalmed by my own lies [01:53.44]Driven to the point of honesty I surrender [01:56.38]I can no longer suspend my disbelief [01:59.20]No one touches me to validate my existence [02:01.69] [02:02.42]I'm sick of living underwater [02:04.90] [02:06.40]I want my humanity back [02:09.21] [03:32.53]This is not my paradise [03:35.32]Creativity channeled into madness [03:38.16]Frozen on the critical moment [03:41.06]Reliving failure in quiet rot [03:44.01]This should not be happening to me [03:47.02]Insane because I turned my back on her [03:49.89]All I can do is exploit my wounds [03:52.76]Dying in a vacuum of loneliness [03:55.60]I must not drown in my own intellect [03:58.49]Tides of extinction below the psyche [04:01.36]Dreams of genocide fade as fear dissolves [04:04.33]Capable of more devices than destruction [04:07.28]I want to stomp and prance in affirmation [04:10.15]Spiders at the gate of an inner world [04:13.10]Damaged broken obsessed [04:15.48] [04:16.04]I will be with her again