December 4th-Jay-Z

[ti:December 4th] [ar:Jay-Z] [al:The Black Album] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.00]December 4th - Jay-Z [00:04.92]Sean Carter was born December 4th [00:07.21] [00:08.74]Weighing in at 10 pounds 8 ounces [00:11.21] [00:11.73]He was the last of my 4 children [00:13.50] [00:14.01]The only one who didn't give me any pain [00:16.71]When i gave birth to him [00:17.85] [00:18.39]And that's how i knew that he was a special child [00:21.10] [00:33.85]They say [00:34.25]"they never really miss you til you dead or you gone" [00:36.32]So on that note i'm leaving after the song [00:38.43]So you ain't gotta feel no way about Jay so long [00:41.63]Atleast let me tell you why i'm this way Hold on [00:44.23]I was conceived by Gloria Carter and Adaness Revees [00:46.94]Who made love under the Siccamore tree [00:49.01]Which makes me [00:49.81]A more sicker emcee my momma would claim [00:52.19]At 10 pounds when i was born i didn't give her no pain [00:55.40]Although through the years i gave her her fair share [00:57.77]I gave her her first real scare [00:59.25]I made it from birth and i got here [01:00.79]She knows my purpose wasn't purpose [01:01.66]I ain't perfect i care [01:02.44]But i feel worthless cause my shirts wasn't matchin my gear [01:05.09] [01:05.69]Now i'm just scratchin the surface cause what's burried under there [01:08.43]Was a kid torn apart once his pop disappeared [01:10.46] [01:11.10]I went to school got good grades could behave when i wanted [01:14.02]But i had demons deep inside that would raise when confronted [01:16.08]Hold on [01:17.17]Shawn was a very shy child growing up [01:19.77] [01:20.56]He was into sports [01:22.04]And a funny story is [01:24.27]At 4 he taught hisself how to ride a bike [01:28.04]A two wheeler at that [01:29.95]Isn't that special [01:31.39]But i noticed a chance in him when me and my husband broke up [01:37.61]Now all the teachers couldn't reach me [01:39.51]And my momma couldn't beat me [01:40.56]Hard enough to match the pain of my pops not seeing me SO [01:43.43]With that distain in my membrain [01:45.48]Got on my pimp game [01:47.18]F**k the world my defense came [01:49.26]Then Dahaven introuced me to the game [01:51.48]Spanish Jose introduced me to cane [01:53.48]I'm a hustler now [01:54.76]My gear is in and i'm in the in crowd [01:56.80]And all the wavey light skinned girls is lovin me now [01:59.25]My self esteem went through the roof man i got my swag [02:01.97]Got a volvo from this girl when her man got bagged [02:04.81]Plus i hit my momma with cash from a show that i had [02:07.57]Supposedly knowin nobody paid Jaz wack a** [02:10.31]I'm geting ahead of myself by the way i could rap [02:12.94]That came second to me movin this crack [02:14.58]Gimme a second i swear [02:16.25]I will say about my rap career [02:17.65]Til 96 came niggas i'm here [02:20.40]Good-bye [02:20.87] [02:21.45]Shawn use to be in the kitchen [02:23.14]Beating on the table and rapping [02:25.64]And um until the wee hours of the morning [02:29.11]And then i bought him a boom box [02:32.36]And his sisters and brothers said he would drive them nuts [02:36.79]But that was my way to keep him [02:39.03]Close to me and out of trouble [02:41.98]Good-bye to the game all the spoils [02:43.75]The adreneline rush [02:44.99]Your blood boils you in a spot [02:46.58]Knowing cops could rush [02:47.70]And you in a drop your so easy to touch [02:49.65]No two days are alike [02:50.52]Except the first and fifteenth pretty much [02:52.31] [02:52.97]And "trust" is a word you seldom hear from us [02:55.87]Hustlers we don't sleep we rest one eye up [02:58.50]And the drought to find a man [03:00.02]When the well dries up [03:01.18]You learn to work the water [03:02.45]Without workin thirst til die YUP [03:04.10]And niggas get tied up for product [03:05.99]And little brothers ring fingers get cut up [03:07.77]To show mothers they really got em [03:09.00]And this was the stress i live with til i decided [03:11.81]To try this rap sh*t for a livin [03:13.76]I Pray i'm forgiven [03:14.78]For every bad decision i made [03:16.27]Every sister i played [03:17.72]Cause i'm still paranoid to this day [03:19.73]And it's nobody fault [03:20.65]I made the decisions i made [03:22.54]This is the life i chose or rather [03:24.61]The life that chose me [03:25.70]If you can't respect that your whole [03:27.18]Perspective is wack [03:27.98]Maybe you'll love me when i fade to black [03:29.50] [03:30.61]If you can't respect that your [03:31.93]Whole perspective is wack [03:33.11]Maybe you'll love me when i fade to black