Tiny Angel (Explicit)-360

[ti:Tiny Angel] [ar:360] [al:Vintage Modern] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.00]Tiny Angel (Explicit) - 360 [00:01.83]Written by：Matt Colwell/Jon Reichardt [00:03.67]So this story is about a really close friend of mine [00:07.24] [00:10.14]I love you brother [00:10.77] [00:12.59]My mates talk sh*t about their wives but I love mine [00:14.97] [00:15.77]Yeah we fight sometimes but ain't that just life [00:17.91] [00:18.48]She's been pregnant now for some time it took us years [00:21.11]And enough tries I thought it wouldn't happen from my young life [00:24.54]From the drunk times or when I tried drugs twice [00:27.33]I thought downstairs had gone and messed it up right [00:29.41] [00:30.09]The doctor told me that I need to stop stressing [00:32.48]The only thing that's working against us is just time [00:35.11] [00:35.72]That was true two months by [00:38.04]My wife called me up while I was working at the pub right [00:40.74] [00:41.53]She told me I was gonna be a daddy [00:43.49]We both broke down she said there's something that I done right [00:46.48]I called my mother told her I was gonna be a father [00:49.58]Mum cried so did I I was tongue tied [00:51.79] [00:52.53]I can't explain this feeling but I love life [00:54.62]I've never had a purpose and this had just become mine [00:57.08] [00:57.66]To create this little person that's fun size [01:00.02]A little bit of her and a little bit of me [01:02.54]But I pray he gets his mum's eyes [01:04.51]I say he cause I've always wanted a son right [01:07.24]The ultrasound said it's a boy my little ray of sunshine [01:11.14]It dawned on me I can't wait to see my son rise [01:13.94]You know what they say about time though It does fly [01:16.81]Fast forward nine months and suddenly it's crunch time [01:19.62]It's been a few days of going through contractions [01:22.05]Gotta stopwatch timing every moment that it happens [01:24.89]We reached five minutes so it's hospital time [01:27.25]I call ahead to see the doctors arrive my wife's laughing [01:29.84]Now I properly drive like the cops are behind [01:32.84]But there was barely any traffic so we got there in time [01:35.61]I'm a little scared but she aingt got a worry in sight [01:38.42]She's a warrior exactly what you want in a wife [01:41.25]It's been several days of epic pain every day she wakes up [01:44.20]Finally she's coming to that second stage of labour [01:46.64] [01:47.29]I sit next to her squeeze on her hand [01:49.53]Put a sponge up on her head and say Breathe if you can [01:52.45]I love you so much baby you're so strong [01:55.19]I could never do this but you so easily can [01:57.57]She said the pain is insane like her abdomen's ruptured [02:00.73]Like someone's got a knife and they're stabbing her stomach [02:02.94]She's like [02:03.25]We have to do something the nurse said [02:05.46]It's natural [02:06.37]Relax it's just a sign that it's actually coming [02:08.35]She's like No it's too much it's too hard to get out [02:11.62]I'm saying any words I think will help at calming her down [02:14.24]Doctor's like [02:14.69]You're nearly through the worst part of it now [02:17.01]Take a look and see my little king is starting to crown [02:19.86]They all telling her to push and she's screaming [02:22.81]She's saying that it hurts I tell her to keep breathing [02:25.15] [02:25.78]It's like push is the only word that they've said now [02:28.21] [02:28.77]Then I'm shocked by the massive scream she lets out [02:31.03] [02:31.69]The doctor's like [02:32.25]Yes now the head's out [02:34.18]And then I watch as he quickly pulling the rest out [02:36.80]It's so amazing to see my son in the flesh [02:39.13]I can't help but notice he hasn't taken a breath now [02:41.87] [02:42.39]They put a little plastic thing in his mouth [02:44.61]While the doctor's two fingers are slightly pumping his chest down [02:47.20] [02:47.86]I start panicking something's gone wrong [02:50.28]They push me to the side I can barely see what's going on [02:53.53]He's not breathing they need to resuscitate him [02:55.40] [02:56.15]He's suffocating I see that it's something major I feel [02:59.10]So helpless I wish I could come and save him [03:01.51]I pray that my son'll make it it's taking em f**king ages [03:03.75] [03:04.32]Everyone's in shock I'm just listening in [03:06.48]Holding my breath wishing I could give it to him f**k [03:10.02]At twenty minutes now they're stopping [03:12.12] [03:12.74]They turn around they say [03:14.47]We've lost him [03:15.08] [03:16.21]I'm in shock I can't talk [03:17.81] [03:18.65]I'm staring at the ground I can't walk [03:20.53] [03:21.08]They hand him to us can't believe the size of him [03:23.27]The most beautiful thing I've ever seen but there's no life in him [03:26.61]My wife's crying like [03:27.77]Why aren't they reviving him [03:29.24]I said [03:29.62]They tried for twenty minutes she's like Try again [03:31.58] [03:32.24]Now I'm feeling like I'm stuck in hell [03:34.28]This is the worst pain I've f**king felt [03:35.80] [03:36.37]I've been ten years clean but now [03:37.65]I'm drunk and on the drugs as well [03:39.69]I'm doing anything to numb myself but nothing helps [03:42.69] [03:43.21]I believed in God for that I feel dumb as hell [03:45.98]Can someone please tell God to go and f**k himself [03:48.30] [03:49.15]I'm sorry yo it's hard to be faithful [03:50.64] [03:51.16]It's painful heaven must be running out of angels [03:53.75]He died from asphyxiation no air in his lungs [03:56.44]A parent should never have to bury their son [03:58.14] [03:58.68]Especially one that's so precious it has barely begun [04:01.44] [04:02.11]That's one thing in life that should never be done [04:04.77]I prayed for a son and they blessed me with one [04:07.22] [04:07.93]My biggest gift now his presence is up [04:10.18]And I'm crying at the thought he won't ever feel a hug [04:12.99]Or the tenderness of love that he'd be getting from his mum [04:15.26] [04:15.84]Sent him from above but why take him [04:18.24]It's like I'm being punished for the negative I've done [04:21.20]And it's killing me that Christmas time is barely in a month [04:23.41] [04:23.94]So I'm doing what I have to do to spend it with my son [04:27.00] [04:35.96]Where did you go [04:37.98] [04:38.77]Are you alone [04:40.70] [04:41.53]How did you get there [04:43.60] [04:44.39]I need you at home [04:45.31] [04:47.08]Where did you go [04:48.92] [04:49.72]Are you alone [04:51.69] [04:52.50]How did you get there [04:54.49] [04:55.39]I need you at home [04:57.27] [04:58.10]I need you at home