The Awakening-Hope For The Dying

I am wasting away The desires of my mind left A shameful path walked by a man Surely unworthy of grace And I have no one to blame And no one to take the pain away I‘ve had my life Hit the bottom multiple times before my eyes So I’m left wasting away, wasting away But I’m supposed to believe That I can be saved When the life I’ve lead is so despicable Can I push the limits, be accepted for the things that I’ve done Behind Closed Doors For I’ve lived a life that I’m ashamed of Will I be forgiven, or abandoned for the secrets I keep Behind Closed Doors Never had I imagined I’d seek forgiveness And be accepted Like I had never committed these sins As I lay filthy, disgusted at my own reflection I slowly I wonder if I’ll ever end this suffering So I bide my time And I lie awake at night Then I close my eyes And wonder if I’ll ever wake up It’s been too long now Since I could believe In places for people like me To have their sins washed clean It’s been too long Since I believed Can I be clean Its been too long