Vertebrae-Christine Fellows

[ti:vertebrae] [ar:Christine Fellows] [al:Paper Anniversary] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.00]Vertebrae - Christine Fellows [00:06.16]A photo essay of a family in mourning [00:10.49]Perforated ever-so-slightly [00:13.67]To better let the light seep through [00:16.24] [00:23.22]Sunday traffic clears a path [00:26.17]We float inches above the road [00:29.07] [00:29.68]Close our eyes and drive so slow [00:32.38] [00:33.79]Like we never need to get home [00:36.19] [00:40.61]To clear the doorstep of flowers [00:43.89] [00:44.54]Throw open the blinds in his empty room [00:47.99] [00:48.70]Avert our eyes from his fingerprints [00:52.29]Is there something I'm forgetting [00:55.52] [00:57.63]Fall to my knees in the hospital parking lot [01:01.72]On the way in arms full of branches [01:06.26]I am dead fall dead fall [01:09.43] [01:14.45]Last time I came here to visit him [01:18.10]I ran sunburnt through the halls [01:20.84]My arms full of tiger-lilies [01:23.50]I don't remember this [01:24.99] [01:25.66]I was told to go home [01:32.22]Clear the doorstep of flowers [01:35.72]Throw open the blinds in his empty room [01:39.42] [01:39.94]Avert my eyes from his fingerprints [01:43.56]Is there something I'm forgetting [01:46.21] [01:48.70]Why when you know you should go [01:52.76]Is it so hard to leave [01:56.30] [01:57.27]Why when you know you should go [02:01.46]Is it so hard to leave [02:04.37] [02:05.89]Why when you know you should go [02:10.19] [02:21.50]Came this far to say goodbye to set things right [02:25.60]Instead I fiddle with his blankets fetching coffee [02:29.07] [02:29.77]No one will drink [02:31.36]I am not prepared [02:33.07] [02:37.86]Through the hush of debts and the roar of engines [02:42.11]We'll struggle to recall [02:44.28]This is how it ended [02:45.85] [02:48.84]This is how it ends [02:50.33] [02:54.07]Home [02:54.93] [02:55.61]Turn the key in the door and pause [02:59.05]For what seems like an awfully long time [03:02.22] [03:03.48]There's something I'm both remembering and forgetting [03:07.22] [03:07.76]A name on the tip of my tongue [03:11.40] [03:12.13]Why when you know you should go [03:16.23]Is it so hard to leave [03:19.74] [03:20.44]Why when you know you should go [03:24.93]Is it so hard to leave [03:28.28] [03:29.01]Why when you know you should go [03:33.31]Is it so hard to leave [03:36.03] [03:37.63]Why when you know you should go