Be A Better Man-Apathy/Blue Raspberry

[ti:Be a Better Man (feat. Bishop Lamont & Blue Raspberry)] [ar:Apathy] [al:Fire Walk with Me: It's the Bootleg, Muthaf**kas! Vol. 3] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.00]Be A Better Man - Apathy/Blue Raspberry [00:20.91]I've been sinning since [00:21.65]I was seaman swimming fiending to be born [00:23.35]Didn't respect women my wisdom wouldn't be formed [00:25.84]Till my father dropped knowledge on me now I'm so torn [00:28.40]Read the Bible during day then at night I watch porn [00:30.88]I need to transform take the bull by the horn [00:33.43]But it's hard when I'm hard and the p**sy look warm [00:35.92]It's harder when I'm broke and that coke make money [00:38.53]Even harder when I'm hungry and there's air in my tummy [00:41.07]My outfit is bummy I try to avoid greed [00:43.48]But this money in my pocket give me everything I need [00:46.06]The hoes and the clothes take a toll on my soul [00:48.62]But the soles in my Nike Air bubble got a hole [00:51.16]And my goal is the gold then the silver but I'm told [00:53.63]That it's old and a platinum grill will keep your drink cold [00:56.20]31 years old and I'm still being controlled [00:58.74]By the devils on the television eating at my soul [01:01.25]I'm ducking 5-0 get a slut to try blow [01:03.90]Listening to Lil' Wayne on my stere-stereo [01:06.16]A sinner I know but I figure I'll grow [01:08.66]One day when I'm grey and my life goes slow [01:11.28]I'm trying to be a better man [01:12.50] [01:13.87]Trying to do the best I can [01:15.08] [01:16.33]Trying to come up with a plan f**k the money in my hand [01:18.99]Gotta find a way to pull my soul up out the garbage can [01:21.47] [01:42.14]Depression is a motherf**ker [01:43.22] [01:43.94]I said depression is a motherf**ker [01:45.75] [01:46.54]Can't understand how don't understand why [01:49.41]Wake up sometimes feeling like you wanna die [01:52.07]Chest all heavy [01:53.22]Mind all froze [01:54.50]Bullet in your brain [01:55.70]Suck some pills overdose [01:56.91]Looking at the bottle do you really want to take 'em [01:59.45]Think it over all night in the morning DJ AM [02:02.19]Afraid to live [02:03.49]Afraid to die [02:04.50]Can't tell if God listening it's hard to yell that high [02:07.01]So you hit him on Skype can't get no reply [02:09.53]Yet the devil live next door always waving hi [02:11.92] [02:12.53]Is he punishing me [02:13.92]Is he running from me [02:15.11]Is God real are y'all just f**king with me [02:17.23]My prayers don't get answered my life is in a slump [02:19.70]I'm a walking portapotty whole world take a dump [02:22.14]My friends ain't sh*t cause I ain't sh*t [02:24.65]And the b**ch that I'm with she really ain't sh*t [02:27.17]And you are what you eat so she's really a dick [02:29.65]You good for nothing slut [02:30.99]But she keep me warm [02:32.21]Make me feel like I'm alive when she lay in my arms [02:34.67]Even though it's all a lie cause she don't want to go home [02:37.31]This ain't love it's more of a convenience [02:39.92]So we pretend we in love in real life we don't see it [02:42.38]Pull a Sixth Sense and just cover our eyes [02:44.69]Hope the ghost go away that keep haunting our lives [02:47.24]But you know it don't stop it's never gon' cease [02:49.95]Will you find peace of mind or just rest in peace [02:52.25]I'm trying to be a better man [02:53.61] [02:54.90]Trying to do the best I can [02:56.06] [02:57.25]Trying to come up with a plan f**k the money in my hand [03:00.05]Gotta find a way to pull my soul up out the garbage can