The Now-Mr Lif

[ti:The Now] [ar:Mr Lif] [al:I Phantom] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.00]The Now (现在) - Mr Lif [00:05.43]Daddy's got a new life now [00:06.95]A new daughter and a new male child [00:08.83]A new swagger wid some real style [00:10.44]New car new house brand new spouse [00:12.40]Little shitty dog named Pouts [00:13.73]Wid smile on his mouth [00:15.00]We'll be straight up we're forgotten [00:16.52]Cause developed a plan [00:17.84]Once the monkey takes some time [00:19.27]To hang with his own fam [00:20.53]Hap' and gay to let ya know [00:21.68]He still cares and such [00:22.78]Ya won't grow apart too much [00:24.09]From bein' outta touch [00:25.25]But he wasn't there for him [00:26.52]On the daily ghetto basis [00:27.71]In order to drop jewels [00:28.62]I stay clear of the racists [00:29.73] [00:30.24]Heavy promises became weightless [00:32.02]Sincerity became faintless [00:33.13] [00:33.85]He's praying for a Santa A-list [00:35.45]Time is passin' by yet his scars remain ageless [00:37.19] [00:37.80]He called him on the phone to say pop's [00:39.67]This'll take a minute of ya time [00:41.22]But his wishes were divined [00:42.48]By the disenchanted tone [00:43.84]At the end of the line hang up [00:45.77]He tried to look strong [00:46.69]In front of mom back up [00:48.06]John stop lookin' forward to the day [00:49.28]You gonna see him on [00:50.40]Dry ya eye to eye and you'll receive an embrace [00:52.59]From a lost heart that's pumpin' blood [00:53.77]Up to a guilty face [00:55.24]He's gonna try to find ways to [00:56.74]Make up for the last twenty nine days [00:58.15]Or was it thirty I think he heard me [01:00.33]In situations like this ya speech becomes wordy [01:02.06] [01:02.83]He's got a hundred million ways [01:03.96]To tell me not to worry [01:05.36]But this time I wasn't hangin' [01:06.75]On his every sentence [01:07.87]Ears crippled by the pain [01:08.76]And negligence so was the tendency [01:10.24]He spoke I couldn't hear a word [01:11.43]I zoned into black I observed [01:12.46] [01:12.99]My only thoughts were missin' [01:13.79]Out on love that I deserved [01:15.36]Tryin' to convince myself [01:16.07]I'm weak within the mental [01:17.63]The silence breaks because [01:18.40]Your father's guidance is essential [01:19.69] [01:20.36]He's lookin' down with a smile sayin' [01:21.60]That the future will be great [01:23.20]I don't see that dad but what about the now [01:25.29]Johnny come and leave ya dad alone now [01:27.04]Yeh it's just you and momma now [01:28.59]Stop the cryin' now just try to smile now [01:30.37]Try to think of other things now [01:31.92]Momma's got another date now [01:33.38]You can get through all the anger [01:34.66]And the hate now [01:35.60]Calm down and wipe ya face now [01:37.03]I know it seems to be hard [01:38.45]But I promise you we'll make it [01:39.69]Through somehow [01:40.47] [01:45.23]Little girl their firstborn their sunshine [01:47.36]Never been a reader wrong get it right one time [01:49.32] [01:49.84]Here's how it goes she's off [01:51.43]To school an' dancin' on her toes [01:52.84]At an hour long ballet class then on to the piano [01:54.70] [01:55.29]Two hours of repetition [01:56.18] [01:56.99]Emulatin' class with music compositions [01:58.33] [01:59.08]Do your homework with precision [01:59.92]By nine-o-clock she collapses [02:01.43]In a heat of dizziness [02:02.84]But sleep so tomorrow you'll repeat ya business [02:04.45] [02:05.11]She got straight A's a stroke of her stress [02:07.01]Throughout her maydays [02:07.87]But drawn up out the melees [02:09.23]Her mom and dad tryna blame each other [02:10.83]Different ways she stop and gaze [02:12.41]Thinkin' how it drives her crazy [02:13.47]When their voices raised [02:14.47]This the web that ruins most of her days [02:16.25]From her perfection was expected [02:17.55]An exec that workin' hard [02:18.62]Without receivin' any raise [02:19.61] [02:20.19]At night she cries when she lays [02:21.73]Then she wakes up washes up smiles [02:23.11] [02:23.72]And goes along like it's okay [02:24.79] [02:25.36]On to high school [02:26.33]There's more intensity within her cycle [02:27.78]She's makin' all the guys drool [02:29.09]Here comes the extra tight rules [02:30.53]No late not with college on the plate [02:32.49]Practice hard study hard stay in focus [02:34.06]Keep ya head straight [02:35.20]Now she's a nervouse wreck lookin' to collect [02:37.23]Anything that she can smoke swallow drink or inject [02:39.13]When she was mentally gone she went to the prom [02:41.40]Had dates and actually could sit down [02:43.44]Discuss relationships with her mom [02:44.48] [02:45.15]But tell me how much pressure can a person take [02:47.39]Before they break and maybe crush this [02:49.00]On a large enough escape [02:50.33]So one night she turned in but stayed up late [02:52.66]At her desk with a single piece of paper [02:54.32]And a papermate [02:55.39]Here's mom a federal team waked at daybreak [02:57.85]What she saw made her knees [02:59.00]Shake the death of dear Kate [03:00.52]The note said here's the future [03:01.72]Of your f**kin' perfect child [03:03.28]Please be proud I'm livin' for the now [03:05.07] [03:05.61]Do your work clean your room now [03:07.23]Take the makeup off your face now [03:08.81]Eat your dinner now get off the phone now [03:10.68]Leave the boys alone now [03:11.77]Saturday night you stayin' home now [03:13.37]Go to your room and sit alone now [03:15.29]Katie with the needle how [03:16.66]Look baby momma needs you now [03:18.24]Breathe now God why did this have to be now