When I Die-Ill Bill/Tia Thomas

[ti:When I Die] [ar:Ill Bill] [al:The Grimy Awards (Deluxe Editi] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.40]Ill Bill – When I Die [00:04.39] [00:42.62]I left you outside the gates of heaven - They wouldn't let me in [00:45.43]I waved goodbye as you stepped within [00:48.31]It's like hell on earth without you near [00:50.48]I named my daughter after you [00:52.04]So when she smiles it's sorta like you're still here [00:54.41]It's kinda crazy how time flies - 25 years since my grandmom died [00:58.67]But it feels like just yesterday when we was all laughing together [01:02.60]Those happy memories are so vivid they'll last me forever [01:06.28]& yet you're still here somehow - I still feel your presence [01:09.28]I credit you for my inner strength - I feel it in my essense [01:13.15]In my soul in my inner being in my genetics [01:15.71]I wouldn't exist if you hadn't persisted through the trenches [01:18.07]I wouldn't have been a lyricist I owe you every sentence [01:20.83]Every verse I've ever written - Your energy is kinetic [01:24.15]Though I've grown up I'm still heartbroken aching to cry [01:26.89]Hoping you're the one holding open those gates when I die [01:29.89] [01:30.99] [01:54.40]I left you outside the gates of heaven - They wouldn't let me in [01:57.64]I waved goodbye as you stepped within [01:59.83]It's like hell on earth without you near [02:01.95]I named my label after you [02:03.70]So when I rhyme it's sorta like you're still here [02:06.06]It's been a year - Still in shock about exactly what happened to you [02:09.56]Made a song for you called "My Uncle" [02:11.44]I was just rapping to you just talking to you [02:13.93]I just saw you at my mother's house [02:16.49]I can't believe I just bought a coffin for you [02:19.17]We always feared that you would die from an overdose [02:21.54]God knows you loved to do drugs it swallowed you whole [02:24.47]But in the end drugs didn't kill you cancer did [02:27.15]Why do good people die young I don't know what the answer is [02:30.52]All I know is I worshipped you as a scrappy kid [02:33.52]Being around you made me feel cooler than rapping did [02:35.96]& that's pretty f**kin cool trust me [02:38.76]I was embarrassed when you started smoking crack [02:40.95]Honestly it crushed me - Swept in under the rug [02:44.13]Started smoking w**d & popping acid but managed to not do the uglier drugs [02:48.25]We grew apart after my grandmother died [02:50.38]Homeless in & outta jail we stopped relating to each others lives [02:53.99]But years later we connected once again [02:55.99]Not just as nephew & uncle but as homies we were friends [02:59.91]Though I've grown up I'm still heartbroken aching to cry [03:02.79]Hoping you're the one holding open those gates when I die