My 1St Time-Dark Lotus

[ti:My 1St Time] [ar:Dark Lotus] [al:Black Rain] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.00]My 1St Time - Dark Lotus [00:30.26]The first time I didn't even feel guilty [00:32.96]Never washed off stayed bloody and filthy [00:34.99]Just laid there next to the kid all night [00:37.43]Kind of soaking it all in and feeling alright [00:39.88]I wasn't even old enough to drive yet it was hell [00:42.53]I had to put him on my handlebars and dump him down a well [00:45.16]I try to feed off of that until I couldn't anymore [00:47.59]By my sixteenth birthday my total had grown to four [00:49.94]I ain't afraid of you but be afraid of me [00:52.34]Cause when the lights go down there ain't no stopping me [00:54.94]Memories of my first real killing [00:56.49] [00:57.03]They found her all tied up just hanging from the ceiling [00:59.73] [01:00.44]What I was feeling was just so dark and twisted [01:02.94]I couldn't believe I just did this [01:05.46]Now I'm stuck in my very own private Hell [01:07.93]Will I ever do it again Time will tell [01:10.12]My first time [01:11.51]I was in control until the blood [01:14.49]It was my first time [01:16.37]The bloody mess I had to clean up [01:18.87] [01:19.57]It was my first time [01:21.17] [01:21.69]I know this ain't right [01:23.53] [01:24.46]It was my first time [01:26.27]I finally took someone else's life [01:28.99] [01:30.36]Every time I lay my a** down to sleep [01:32.43]I pray to f**k these memories seize [01:35.13]Bloody face and final breaths taken [01:37.66]But the first uh what was I thinking [01:40.33]Just a piece of rope and a pair of hands [01:42.59]I wasn't mad but she kept talking man [01:44.43] [01:44.96]Suffocation due to not breathing [01:47.53]I choked her for the very first time for no reason [01:50.14]It was eleven on my clock I remember that much [01:52.40]In the graveyard waiting for the d**e man to show up [01:55.08]Ten minuets pasts and there's still no sign [01:57.58]Just then off in the night I see some headlights [02:00.24]A car rolls by driving slow and I don't know [02:02.68]I thought it was my folk I ain't pulled the 44 [02:05.24]They stopped the ride started blasting [02:06.81]The fist time I didn't pull the heat [02:08.98]Damn this what happened [02:10.31]My first time [02:10.98] [02:11.62]I was in control until the blood [02:13.84] [02:14.51]It was my first time [02:16.34]The bloody mess I had to clean up [02:19.29]It was my first time [02:21.34]I know this ain't right [02:23.74] [02:24.34]It was my first time [02:26.29]I finally took someone else's life [02:29.29] [02:30.02]First time my knife touched skin [02:31.64]And the red blood started flowing so quick I just couldn't quit [02:34.85]Kept stabbing until everything that I seen was red [02:37.45]The pillow the blankets the walls and even the bed [02:40.12]One color dominating everything like contemporary art [02:42.34]Am I the killer or artist with bloody heart [02:44.81]Then I curled into a ball in the corner of the room [02:47.48]Feeling like a creep in the light of the moon [02:50.05]If I took this gun and put a hole in your chest [02:52.39]It won't compare to the first time I put someone to rest [02:54.92]Kind of like a dream but on a nightmare level [02:57.46]Every time I think about it I can still hear the shovel [03:00.25]Diggin deep into the dirt to try to hide the pain [03:02.48]Knowing I got away with something I'll regret in the end [03:04.82]I really shouldn't have never done it [03:06.46]But f**k it I did him in [03:07.74]The first person that I killed was my first best friend [03:10.24]My first time [03:11.38]I was in control until the blood [03:14.54]It was my first time [03:16.40]The bloody mess I had to clean up [03:18.76] [03:19.58]It was my first time [03:20.80] [03:21.40]I know this ain't right [03:23.80] [03:24.36]It was my first time [03:26.38]I finally took someone else's life [03:29.57]Someone else's life [03:30.34] [03:31.41]Someone else's life first [03:33.87]Someone else's life [03:35.69] [03:36.37]Someone else's life first [03:38.89]Someone else's life [03:40.68] [03:41.36]Someone else's life first [03:43.88]Someone else's life [03:45.40] [03:46.32]Someone else's life first [03:48.90]Someone else's life