I'm Back-Joe Budden

To my dear dearly departed Sh*t's becomin' all that I feared, here's where it started Seems that nothing's as it appears, swear it's retarded No wonder I get speared by my peers, yeah I'm a target It used to take a nation of millions for niggas not to be AmeriKKKa's Most gave America hope Back when the music had a message in it We was rebels against it The best was intended to lessen the gimmicks But now y'all made a mess of it And somebody gotta address this sh*t Rakim would never wear a dress and sh*t I ain't a pessimist to say I ain't impressed with it Your hearing's bad, you think it's alive, now that's the death in it When it was all about bars, wanted to weddin' it Surround yourself with bullshit, you'll be liable to step in it Came here with one objective, gettin' it further Now I'm watchin' my first love die, witnessin' murder When Common stopped lovin' ol' girl, what was he tellin' me? Cold world, now she won't dig you without a melody Love nerds, used to be into niggas with felonies We need a new president, where the f**k is Eric B? Or did my wordplay confuse her? Now I see her with Young Thug and Future Like what did you niggas do to her? Now, my generalization is this generation The imminent state of this gentrification, desensitization I call her, she's in Marvin's room, everything is awkward now She moved more to south, deserted her New Yorker crowd Met her with a cane, she changed, prefer to walk it out Stopped eatin' meat when she heard I worked in a slaughterhouse Now she's a new dame glued to the fame She used to hate accessorizin', now she's wearin' two chains Relationship too strained, I don't know who to blame When I tell her, "You changed", she say, "Who would be the same" She right... cause this ain't the way we knew each other Or do I face the fact that maybe we outgrew each other? It took a while, but that's finally understood She wouldn't change if she could I swear if this is love, I'm good Everything has changed, I can see it clear in fact Starin' at these four walls, angry that they're starin' back Took a while, now it's finally understood Would we change it if we could? I swear if this is love, I'm good Look, I can't get with you at all, our issue is tall You tied to every ni**a now that dribbles a ball Did I miss a red flag? You wasn't fickle before I can't even ridicule y'all, that'd be a bitter resolve Wanna talk about our history I feel like everything you say is contradictory Whenever you come visit me I look at you and see remembrance, remnants Plenty resentments, it's not you but there's resemblance We diss each other all out of fun, sh*t amuses me You threaten every girl I'm with, that just confuses me Say you want kids real soon, now that's abuse to me And I just write about it in song, you're like a muse to me I wanna ask where you see yourself in five years How you goin' about that, like what's the verdict? I wanna ask if you ever replay the past over And if you do, when you finished is it worth it? I wanna ask if we love each other so much How do we cause each other so much pain? Still in all in each others lives We've remained without a claim I know some'll call that clinically insane How do we remedy the games? Was once enemies and then that energy refrained Wasn't meant to be, the synergy had us mentally drained Minimally sprained so relentlessly he aims Despite when you said you never could depend on me again Still we're here as none of this had ever taken place Are we checkin' to see if someone's takin' our place? As we front like we're takin' up space I think currently the current we is makin' our case But for what? Would that just seal it again Did it all hurt so much? Do we wanna feel it again? I doubt it Took a while, still nothing's understood Would we change it if we could? I swear if this is love, I'm good Everything has changed, I can see it clear in fact Starin' at these four walls, angry that they're starin' back Took a while, now it's finally