The Explanation-Howards Alias

[ti:The Explanation] [ar:Howards Alias] [al:Beat Heart, Beat] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.00]The Explanation - Howards Alias [00:14.66]I feel sick that was sex not relationship [00:18.49]I've waited this time to find I already knew me [00:22.71] [00:23.90]I now see that I was filled with apathy [00:27.62]When I needed to feel like I could be [00:29.85]What most of the other boys are [00:32.26] [00:42.78]I wished I could have brought fantasy to life [00:46.44]Now all I want to be is not what I wanted today [00:50.77] [00:51.86]It felt new but not as good as staying true to [00:55.73]What to what I now see has been hidden away [00:57.93]But always a part of me [01:00.69] [01:01.26]I respect all opinions; [01:03.18]I respect all we've seen today [01:05.34] [01:05.89]I tried so hard to do this [01:07.50]I tried so hard to change my ways [01:09.96] [01:10.53]But now I see that I can't change [01:12.81]From how I've always been [01:14.89]So this might be you but baby it's not me [01:18.56] [01:26.83]I feel sick that was sex not relationship [01:30.65]I've waited this time to find I already knew me [01:36.11]So why waste time pretending [01:38.19]That I am fine with friendship [01:40.77]Put on the line for something [01:42.14]That means much less to me now [01:45.41] [01:46.74]I respect all opinions; [01:48.46]I respect all we've seen today [01:50.95] [01:51.58]I tried so hard to do this [01:53.33]I tried so hard to change my ways [01:56.07]But now I see that I can't change [01:58.51]From how I've always been [02:00.57]Because this might be you but baby [02:02.79]It's not me [02:04.03] [02:13.00]All these times I just froze up inside meant [02:17.31]All this time I didn't feel so free [02:21.64] [02:22.46]All these days I thought I'd change my ways [02:26.01]And turn myself into something I'm not [02:31.08] [02:31.95]All these times I just froze up inside meant [02:35.97]All this time I didn't feel so free [02:40.34] [02:41.24]Now I'm aware I do have love to share [02:45.27]Only in ways which feel right to me [02:50.48] [02:51.07]Can't you see all I'm saying is for me [02:54.73]This is not right just yet I need to feel trust [03:00.55]I respect all opinions; [03:02.22]I respect all we've seen today [03:04.76] [03:05.33]I tried so hard to do this [03:07.13]I tried so hard to change my ways [03:09.62]But now I see that I can't change [03:12.14]From how I've always been [03:14.38]And it doesn't make a difference [03:16.37]When I try my heart fails me [03:19.08]So can you find it in yourself [03:21.37]To accept what you see [03:23.79]Because this might be you but baby [03:26.02]It's not me