Suffocating (Explicit)-Dax

[ti:Suffocating (Explicit)] [ar:Dax] [al:Pain Paints Paintings (Explicit)] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.04]Suffocating (Explicit) - Dax [00:00.61]Lyrics by：Daniel Nwosu Jr [00:00.78]Composed by：Daniel Nwosu Jr [00:01.68]Huh I'm tired man [00:09.94]Sometimes I just sit in my room [00:11.31]And I just hold my breath [00:15.14]And let all the pressure and anxiety build up [00:18.90]And just let the time pass by [00:22.97]At first I couldn't breathe [00:24.43]Now I'm suffocatin' suffocatin' [00:25.83]Maybe the pressure from the fame [00:27.36]Isn't worth what I'm chasin' I don't know [00:29.46]I used to say god's playing [00:30.94]Now the devil's on my team acting [00:32.65]Foul and it's all flagrant huh [00:34.49]Tryna push me off the path [00:36.02]That I'm steady paving [00:37.11]Sin is the currency and every [00:38.65]Day I'm making payments every day [00:40.25]I don't wanna live in it [00:41.60]But I heard a saying [00:42.72]Good knows evil 'cause the [00:43.97]Houses are both adjacent [00:45.61]I don't know if I should go for these goals [00:47.76]I've seen people gain the world [00:49.20]But lose they souls [00:50.60]My anxiety is buildin' as the [00:52.33]Weight of it grows [00:53.45]I seclude myself in privacy inside my home [00:56.21]And I barely answer calls [00:57.57]And when I see my phone [00:59.05]I'm reminded that the real [01:00.36]Feelin' of being alone real feelin' [01:02.22]Is having millions who love you [01:03.50]But can leave you [01:04.37]Or say that they hate you at the [01:06.01]Moment they don't [01:06.58]**** with a song [01:07.56]I used to laugh it off [01:08.85]Now I hold my breath and suffocate [01:10.46]That's what I do [01:11.38]Then I sit and wait just to see [01:12.99]If I can kill the hate I can kill [01:14.86]And as I'm fleetin' I see [01:15.93]God at the heaven's gates [01:17.06]Then come back down to fight another day [01:19.43]Then I grab that same phone [01:20.96]And smile and wave [01:22.04]And pour my empty heart into a [01:23.45]Song that they won't praise [01:24.99]They say patience is the key [01:26.59]But they didn't tell me while I wait [01:28.64]I'd be locked inside a steel cage [01:30.59]Something's wrong I feel claustrophobic [01:32.75]Claustrophobic [01:33.33]I'm stuck living in the past [01:34.42]And not the moment the moment [01:35.94]Or the future where my life [01:37.19]Is only more broken more broken [01:38.68]'Cause those wounds from the [01:39.66]Past are still open still open [01:41.46]I take sips of love and [01:42.68]Every single time it's poison [01:44.01]I see women who can't see past my employment [01:46.87]Or see me as enjoyment so I can't enjoy it [01:49.38]'Cause the ride's temporary and they leave [01:51.19]Once they crash and destroy it [01:52.89]I don't think this life is healthy [01:54.23]Why didn't anybody tell me [01:55.67]Everybody'd want help but nobody'd [01:57.49]Wanna help me I'm an atm [01:59.37]A therapist and everybody's friendly [02:01.33]And they hide their real intentions [02:02.67]But my mind won't let me [02:04.09]If I make a sad song [02:05.54]Don't ask me if I'm happy [02:07.42]**** a hook my pain isn't catchy [02:10.05]If you relate or worse feel badly [02:12.66]******* pity me at least [02:13.96]And check in if you at me [02:15.54]That's the only way I'll know who it touches [02:17.69]That's why I stay awake and [02:18.97]Answer dms by the hundreds by the hundreds [02:20.99]So I don't lose myself and fill my stomach [02:23.17]With the feelin' that I'm here [02:24.54]Just to suffocate for nothin' [02:26.09]If you know real pain then you see it [02:28.18]When you look me in my eyes [02:29.66]******* pain [02:30.16]I try to hide it but they do not lie [02:32.66]I wanna sleep but if I try [02:35.29]The demons who creep in [02:36.73]My dreams will collide [02:38.03]So I stay up and I stare at the ceilin' [02:40.22]And ask myself if I should [02:41.53]Even share these feelings [02:43.19]Then I hear a voice in the [02:44.59]Distance from a ghost-like image [02:46.45]Sayin' my pain could be somebody's healin' [02:48.74]So I close my eyes and drift to [02:52.43]The place that inspires these lyrics [02:54.73]And as I see flames and I scream [02:57.35]I pray it's a place you'll [02:58.93]Never have to visit