Deja Vu-Eminem

[00:00.14] [00:01.37]DMC, we have a mid-thirties male found down, unresponsive [00:05.12]Possible overdose, substance unknown [00:07.68]Pulse is 60 and thready, respiration's eight [00:10.69]He's intubated and we're bagging him now [00:12.74]BP 90 over palp [00:14.73]Patient is cool, pale, and diaphoretic [00:17.01]Has aspirated, GSC is 3 [00:19.70]We'll update en route ETA ten minutes [00:22.16]As I fall deeper into a manic state [00:25.14]I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict trait [00:28.74]Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate [00:30.88]I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil then I salivate [00:34.40]Start off with the NyQuil like, I think I'll just have a taste [00:37.30]Couple of sips of that then I gradually graduate [00:39.87]To a harder prescription drug called Valium like, yeah that's great [00:43.09]I go to just take one, and I end up like having eight [00:45.92]Now I need something in my stomach cause I haven't ate [00:48.84]Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak [00:51.65]And you'd think that with all I have at stake [00:53.83]Look at my daughter's face [00:55.24]"Mommy, something is wrong with Dad I think [00:57.29]He's acting weird again, he's really beginning to scare me [01:00.20]Won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me [01:03.01]And all he does is eat Doritos and Cheetos [01:05.47]And he just fell asleep in his car [01:07.16]eating 3 Musketeers in the rear seat" [01:08.65]Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know [01:11.90]Feels like I been down this road before [01:14.50]So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me [01:17.81]As soon as I go home and close the door [01:20.18]Kinda feels like déjà vu [01:22.57]I wanna get away from this place, I do [01:25.27]But I can't and I won't [01:26.62]Say I try, but I know that's a lie [01:28.83]Cause I don't, and why I just don't know [01:31.22]"Maybe just a nice cold brew, what's a beer?" [01:34.00]That's the devil in my ear I've been sober a fuckin' year [01:36.73]And that fucker still talks to me he's all I can fuckin' hear [01:39.50]"Marshall, come on we'll watch the game [01:42.72]It's the Cowboys and Buccaneers" [01:44.31]And maybe if I just drink half I'll be half-buzzed [01:46.99]For half of the time [01:47.96]Who's the mastermind behind that little line? [01:50.39]With that kind of rationale, man I got half a mind [01:52.85]To have another half a glass of wine [01:54.94]Sounds asinine, yeah I know, [01:56.40]But I never had no problem with alcohol [01:58.59]Ouch, look out for the wall [02:00.23]Aim for the couch, I'm 'bout to fall [02:01.80]I missed the couch and down I go lookin' like a bouncy ball [02:04.64]Shit musta knocked me out 'Cause I ain't feel the ground at all [02:07.33]Wow, what the fuck happened last night? Where am I? [02:10.18]Man, fuck am I hungover, and goddamn I [02:12.86]Got a headache, shit half a Vicodin, why can't I [02:15.76]All systems ready for take off, please stand by [02:18.87]Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know [02:22.11]Feels like I been down this road before [02:24.74]So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me [02:27.80]As soon as I go home and close the door [02:30.46]Kinda feels like déjà vu [02:32.63]I wanna get away from this place, I do [02:35.59]But I can't and I won't [02:36.87]Say I try, but I know that's a lie [02:38.90]Cause I don't, and why I just don't know [02:42.20]So I take a Vicodin, splash it hits my stomach then, ahhhh [02:45.45]Couple of weeks go by it ain't even like I'm gettin' high [02:48.07]Now I need it just not to feel sick, yeah I'm gettin' by [02:50.94]Wouldn't even be taking this shit if DeShaun didn't die [02:53.92]Oh yeah, there's an excuse, you lose Proof so you use [02:56.57]There's new rules, it's cool if it's helpin' you to get through [02:59.45]It's twelve noon, ain't no harm in self inducin' a snooze [03:02.32]What else is new, fuck it what would Elvis do in your shoes [03:05.16]Now here I am three months later, full-blown relapse [03:08.12]Just get high until the kids get home from school, holmes Relax [03:11.10]And since I'm convinced that I'm an insomniac [03:13.79]I need these pills to be able to sleep, so I take three naps [03:16.66]Just to be able to function throughout the day, let's see [03:19.42]That's an Ambien each nap, how many Valium, three [03:22.37]And that will average out to about one good hour's sleep [03:26.19]Ok, so now ya see, the reason how come he [03:29.08]Has taken four years to just put out an album, B [03:31.83]See, me and you, we almost had the same outcome Heath [03:34.66]'Cause that Christmas you know the whole pneumonia thing? [03:37.50]It was bologna, was it the methadone, ya think? [03:40.35]Or the hydrocodone you hide inside your pornos [03:42.89]Your VCR tape cases, with your Ambien CR [03:45.62]Great places to hide 'em, ain't it? [03:47.39]So you can lie to Hailie [03:48.80]I'm goin' beddy bye, Whitney baby [03:50.60]Good night Alaina! [03:51.68]Go in the room and shut the bedroom door [03:53.97]And wake up in an ambulance [03:55.33]They said they found me on the bathroom floor [03:58.20]Damn [03:58.82]Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know [04:02.05]Feels like I been down this road before [04:04.67]So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me [04:07.94]As soon as I go home and close the door [04:10.43]Kinda feels like déjà vu [04:12.51]I wanna get away from this place, I do [04:15.39]But I can't and I won't [04:16.97]Say I try, but I know that's a lie [04:19.09]Cause I don't, and why I just don't know [04:23.43]Elamivl