PTSD (Explicit)-Dreamville/Omen/Mereba/Deante' Hitchcock/St. Beauty

[ti:PTSD (Explicit)] [ar:Dreamville/Omen/Mereba/Deante' Hitchcock/St. Beauty] [al:Revenge Of The Dreamers III] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.00]PTSD (Explicit) - Dreamville/Omen/Mereba/Deante' Hitchcock/St. Beauty [00:06.49]Lyrics by：Marian Mereba/Damon Coleman/Deante' Van Hitchcock/Alexe Belle/Isis Valentino/Cameron Osteen [00:12.98]Composed by：Marian Mereba/Damon Coleman/Deante' Van Hitchcock/Alexe Belle/Isis Valentino/Cameron Osteen [00:19.47]Used to bend for me like the steel of a hatchback
曾经愿意为我折腰 就像用来制造掀背式轿车的钢铁 [00:22.02]You was there for Q like a fourth grade class fact
你曾经就像四年级的孩子一样天真烂漫 [00:24.57]Q was in for me never needed to ask that
兄弟一直陪着我 根本不用问 [00:27.02]PTSD now I'm having a flashback
创伤后应激障碍 现在我脑子里不断回放过去的画面 [00:29.52]Told me I'm sweet can't sleep in the trap trap
说我很温柔 无法入眠 [00:31.87]Enemy envy make the strap go brrat brrat
敌人 妒忌 掏出了武器 [00:34.54]You the missing piece no peace when I sleep now
你是我不可或缺的一部分 现在我睡觉都不安宁 [00:37.02]Used to practice peace finna sleep with the piece now
曾经想要和睦相处 现在睡觉都要带着武器 [00:40.32]Know I'ma miss you long as I'm alive
只要我还活着 我就会想念你 [00:42.79]You said you need to call me be sure I tried
你说你将来要么发财 要么死在发财的路上 [00:45.26]I wish I didn't have a song to write
我希望我不用写这些歌 [00:47.80]I know you probably follow me with your light
我知道你可能在我身后 照亮我的路 [00:49.83]My mama told me faith is all that I need
我妈妈告诉我 信念就是我需要的一切 [00:51.97]And back in the day I would've agreed but now it's hard to believe
以前我还会同意 但现在我很难相信 [00:54.63]I still do not 'cause I want 'cause I need to
虽然我很想相信 但我还是不敢相信 [00:56.85]Believe in something greater than me without being able to see it
不能亲眼见证 我就不会相信有什么比我更伟大的东西 [00:59.78]So f**k a watch I wear my heart on my sleeve
所以 去他的手表 我把我的真心捧在手上 [01:01.60]Nobody knows my sorrow nobody knows about the trouble I seen
没人明白我的悲伤 没人明白我遇到多大的烦恼 [01:04.77]A lot of dead n***as livin' through me shawty but not in the literal
很多死去的兄弟还活在我的心里 但他们的肉体已不复存在 [01:07.89]Most 'em dead 'cause they ain't follow they dream
他们大部分人已经死去 因为他们没有坚持自己的梦想 [01:09.82]The power of a higher entity entered me
一股更加强大的力量灌进了我的身体 [01:12.13]Mentally physically spiritually
心理上 身体上 精神上 [01:13.56]I'm on a whole different energy
我已经全然不同了 [01:14.84]F**k the world but I need you to remember me
去他的世界 但我需要你记住我 [01:16.79]I had doubt in myself 'cause I used to fear
我曾怀疑自己 因为我害怕 [01:18.63]That you would look at me differently
你会用异样的眼光看待我 [01:20.00]If I ever changed I'm numb to it now I don't feel the same
如果我改变了 现在我也已经麻木了 我已经不是从前的我 [01:22.88]A slave to the feeling I'm breaking the chains
被感情奴役 我要挣脱束缚 [01:24.85]Tryna balance out the joy the pain the sun the rain
想要在欢乐和痛苦之间 阳光和风雨之间找到一个平衡点 [01:27.46]My life and the fame done lost the game
我的生活和我的声名 已经输了这场比赛 [01:29.44]The gift the shame my skin my veins
天赋 耻辱 我的皮肤 我的血液 [01:31.28]My soul done rained so much on my heart
我的灵魂让我的心无比沉重 [01:33.34]Really I don't know where to start
我真的不知道该从何说起 [01:34.84]The irony of finding self in the dark
在黑暗中寻找自我 多么讽刺 [01:36.64]My n***a truthfully feel like it's two of me
兄弟 说真的 我感觉自己是两个人 [01:38.64]I should've been on that ark
我应该登上诺亚方舟 [01:39.62]A love-hate relationship with my thoughts
心里的想法让我又爱又恨 [01:41.68]I'm tryna shine in my own light
我想沐浴在自己的光芒之中 [01:43.19]The realest n***a left in my own right
最真实的那个人已经离我而去 [01:45.06]Helping you with your vices
想要帮你解决问题 [01:46.14]but can't seem to get a grip on my own life yeah
但我似乎连自己的生活都搞不定 [01:50.26]I was on my way down breakdowns breakthroughs
我在走下坡路 不断失败 又不断突破自己 [01:52.65]Spit up out my debut gotta say I stay true
完成了我的处女作 必须说我始终如一 [01:55.16]Maybe why I stayed broke I been on a goose chase
也许 之所以我会一无所成 是因为我在追寻不存在的东西 [01:57.53]Gotta swallow pride when they see me how the truth taste
必须放下自尊 现实的滋味如何 [02:00.04]Off the beaten path like Blueface
像Blueface一样 不走寻常路 [02:02.26]On the North Side had to be a Tuesday
当时在北边 那是一个星期二 [02:04.72]Walkin' slow with your kids on a school day
在上课日和你的孩子慢慢地走 [02:06.99]Way past midnight suddenly my mood change
凌晨时分 我的心情突然改变 [02:09.53]That's when the truth came in New York hearing rumors
那时候我看清了现实 在纽约 听到各种谣言 [02:12.52]My sister was homeless convinced her to often
我姐姐无家可归 说也说不听 [02:15.00]Been years since we talked number changed
我们已经好久没有说话 电话号码也变了 [02:17.23]Saw you and my heart broke in a couple ways
看见你 我的心碎成了好几瓣 [02:19.80]I can't believe when I seen you I knew s**t was true
看到你时 我不敢相信 我知道那些事情是真的 [02:22.58]Stared in your eyes and I saw a different you
凝视着你的眼睛 我看到了截然不同的你 [02:25.07]Skated off fast 'fore I could address it
我还没有说出来 那个不同的你就迅速消失了 [02:27.31]Hope I ran into you 'fore we both get to Heaven
希望在我俩进入天堂之前 我还能遇见你 [02:29.51]We 'ight we 'ight
我们很好 我们很好 [02:33.87]You opened up my eyes and helped me see the light
你让我睁开双眼 让我看见了希望 [02:39.00]We 'ight we 'ight
我们很好 我们很好 [02:43.79]You opened up my eyes and helped me see the light ayy
你让我睁开双眼 让我看见了希望 [02:51.85]Yeah hahahaha [02:53.91]We just kickin' it you know ayy woah
我们在放松身心 你懂的 [02:57.65]I'm here with all my friends
我和朋友们都在这里 [02:59.63]This is for the homies for the homies all the homies what
这是为了兄弟们 所有的好兄弟 [03:04.15]What
什么 [03:04.83]And the h*es
还有女人 [03:07.85]Hahahaha yeah [03:09.21]Said this is for the homies for the homies all the homies what
我说 这是为了兄弟们 所有的好兄弟 [03:14.69]And the h*es
还有女人 [03:17.31]Can't forget about the h*es yeah
不能忘了女人 [03:19.96]For the homies for the homies for the homies what
为了兄弟们 所有的好兄弟 [03:24.11]What
什么 [03:24.75]And the h*es
还有女人 [03:27.63]Ayy that s**t sound tight
这首歌听起来不错 [03:29.81]This is for the homies for the homies all the homies what
这是为了兄弟们 所有的好兄弟 [03:34.18]What
什么 [03:34.80]And the h*es
还有女人 [03:37.70]Hahahaha yeah [03:39.19]Said this is for the homies for the homies all the homies what
我说 这是为了兄弟们 所有的好兄弟 [03:44.67]And the h*es
还有女人 [03:47.21]Can't forget about the h*es yeah
不能忘了女人 [03:48.88]For the homies for the homies for the homies what
为了兄弟们 所有的好兄弟 [03:53.03]What
什么 [03:53.57]And the h*es
还有女人