Carissa-Sun Kil Moon

[ti:Carissa] [ar:Sun Kil Moon] [al:Benji] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.00]Carissa - Sun Kil Moon [00:16.99]Oh Carissa when I first saw you [00:20.57]You were a lovely child [00:23.51]And the last time I saw you [00:25.82]You were fifteen and pregnant [00:28.40]And running wild [00:30.81]I remember wondering [00:33.23]Could there be a light at the end of your tunnel [00:38.05]But I left Ohio then [00:40.09]And pretty much forgotten all about you [00:45.68]I guess you were there some years ago [00:49.55]At a family funeral [00:52.70]But you were one of so many relatives [00:56.09]I didn't know which one was you [01:00.89]Yesterday morning I woke up to so many [01:04.66]330 area code calls [01:07.20]I called my mom back [01:10.09]And she was in tears and asked [01:12.49]How to spoke to my father [01:15.31]Carissa burned to death [01:18.06]Last night in a freak accident fire [01:22.83]In her yard in Bruster her daughter [01:25.62]Came home from a party and found her [01:30.09]Same way as my uncle [01:32.05] [01:33.77]Who was her grandfather [01:37.74]An aerosol can blew up in the trash [01:41.09]Goddamn what were the odds [01:44.72]She was just getting ready to go to her [01:48.21]Midnight shift as an RN is Rosworth [01:52.21]And she vanished up in flames like [01:55.36]That but there had to be more to her life's worth [02:00.08]Everyone's grieving out of their minds [02:03.81]Making arrangements and taking drugs [02:07.13]But I'm flying out there tomorrow [02:09.42]Because I need to give and get some hugs [02:14.36]Cause I got questions that [02:18.26]I'd like to get answered [02:21.47]I may never get them [02:24.72]But Carissa gotta know how did it happen [02:28.12] [02:29.53]Carissa was thirty-five [02:32.93]You don't just raise two kids [02:35.25]And take out your trash and die [02:40.46]She was my second cousin [02:43.50]I didn't know her well at all [02:46.10]But it doesn't mean that [02:47.18]I wasn't meant to find some poetry [02:54.42]To make some sense of this [02:56.78]To find a deeper meaning [03:01.87]In a senseless tragedy [03:03.79] [03:06.02]Oh Carissa I'll sing your name across every sea [03:42.20]Were you doing someone else's chores for them [03:49.68]Were you just killing time [03:51.85]Finding things to do all by your lonesome [03:54.55] [03:56.54]Was it even you mistakenly put [03:59.95]Flammables in the trash [04:03.83]Was it your kids just being kids [04:06.95]And so oh [04:08.44]The guilt they will carry around forever [04:12.04]Well I'm going out there to get [04:15.80]A look at the landscapes [04:17.28] [04:18.88]To get a look at those [04:20.61]I'm connected by blood [04:22.55]And see how it all may have shaped me [04:26.35]Well I'm going out there though [04:30.22]I'm not really needed [04:33.45]I'm just so broken up about it [04:36.78]How is it that this sad history repeated [04:41.10]I'll return to Ohio to the place [04:45.87]I was born [04:48.50]Gonna see where [04:49.58]I hung with my cousins [04:51.46]And played with them in the snow [04:54.89]Fist in their palms [04:56.00]Gonna see how they've grown [04:57.90]Visit some greats and say hey [05:00.97]I've missed you [05:02.75]Gonna find out as much as [05:05.18]I can about my second little cousin Carissa [05:11.00]Gonna go to Ohio [05:14.14]Where I was born [05:18.13]Got a 10:45 am flight [05:21.25]I'm leaving tomorrow morning [05:24.95]Gonna see my aunts and my uncles [05:28.58]My parents and sisters [05:32.31]Mostly I'm going to pay my respects to my [05:36.11]Little second cousin Carissa [05:40.40]Going to Ohio where I feel I belong [05:47.00]Ask those who know the most about [05:49.55]Carissa for it her life [05:52.57]And death that I'm helplessly drawn [05:55.43]Carissa was thirty-five [05:58.05]Raised kids since she was fifteen years old [06:01.53]And suddenly died [06:05.36]Next to an old river [06:07.32]Fire pit oh there's gotta be more than that to it [06:16.93]She was only my second cousin [06:19.88]But it don't mean that [06:21.87]I'm not here for her or that [06:24.14]I wasn't meant to give her life poetry [06:31.23]Make sure her name is known across every city