My Cancer-Reflections

To be honest, the truth is I'm afraid I fear losing the only thing I've ever held so close The fact is you never cared Half as much for me as I did for you. No matter what you say, You're filling your head with lies Telling yourself you'll be here, When you're not anywhere to be found How can you just close your eyes And pretend I'm a ghost, When I am haunted by the thought of you To be honest, I wish I was like you. I wish I could forget these memories Did you not see me falling down Into endless shades of grey You watched without taking a step I just wish you could disappear But maybe I'm the one who turns into smoke Maybe this is my destiny Maybe this is my destiny