LETTER TO PEEP (Prod. Despair & Shiro)-BEXEY

I miss you so much, man I just want to go and join you, man It's so ****ing lonely down here Everything feels so different I'ma see you soon, bro I promise Aye, Peep Everyone you warned me about now claiming they miss you Held your cold face, said good bye, hugged you then kissed you Hopped up off that tour bus, stumbling in pieces Hope you finally at peace now that you no longer breathing When you was laughing the hardest, still felt your pain That deep desperation gaze, cry baby face You had had a thousand plays way back in the day When you had them millions, you was still exactly the same Both ****ed up, living rough, had nothing Edited your first video, you sent my PayPal money Didn't even want it but it stopped my sister being hungry We was so connected, living in completely different countries Flew out to LA, Uber to your place Never seen so many strangers crowded in a tiny place Everyone offering drugs, taking pictures of your face No one offering love or wondering 'bout your day Both heartbroken, introverted, so lonely You was the only one of the few to ever really know me Gus, what's it like up there, man? I wanna join ya Struggling to keep it moving, tangled in paranoia Everyone that wasn't loyal to ya, woulda killed 'em for ya You had the same mentality 'cause family important Gus, I'm tryna fight my fears, our childhood was poison I got demons I been running from, never stood up and fought 'em 'Bout to take a flight back to London, yeah, in a few days Where we lived together, I don't wanna see that place All that bizare furniture you purchased, so awkwardly placed You'd take a step back and stare at it until it looked okay I held your face, took a step back, nothing looked okay, brother You was shining bright, now you've turned into this grey color Holding back the tears everytime I hear your name come up I don't wanna say nothing, they don't know this pain's cutting Tryna stay strong for loners like us Made a video of you sleeping on the back of that bus Made a joke, said that Gus is working out finally Put the camera on you to see that you was falling asleep Everyday of that tour, like you usually do Head back, mouth open, yep, the usual I saw you like this everyday on the entire tour I didn't know that you was dead, man, as if I would've recorded (REST IN PEACE HELLBOY PEEP)