Take My Time-Stella Mwangi

[Verse 1:] I grew up with a lot of racism And only Lord knows how much I hated them For showing me hate and never had I been mean to them Was just a little kid trying to get friends with them They used to call me ugly names cause my skin was dark I couldn't take the pain couldn't play in the park But that didn't stop them they used to shout from far Saying go back home cause a nigger you are And at that time I didn't even know what that meant I was probably six or seven year's old man I told the teachers, never got help All they said, you gotta know your different play with yourself Man, I felt so alone Never liked school couldn't wait to get home But as the days passed I got through it all But from time to time I break down when I remember it all so [Chorus:] I just need a little time for myself So I can, think bout my life no body else I just need a little time for myself [Verse 2:] So I can take it easy, do ya hear me I had low self esteem Always walked fast passed the mirror wouldn't see, or except myself I didn't wanna be me I would have done anything so I could be somebody else I tried to fit in, but wouldn't get in The only place I got in was the wrong click I hung in but it wasn't good for me I knew I wanted much more than to pocket pick I was afraid how my life would end No body wanted me around I wasn't good with friends Probably cause I wasn't trying to let Anybody see the real me and know how I felt They'd look down on me Say what I couldn't be That's what my mind used to say slowly killing me But days passed I got through it all But sometimes I remember it all so [Chorus:] I just need a little time for myself So I can, think bout my life no body else I just need a little time for myself [Verse 3:] I used to think that love last forever But when my parents divorced I cried forever I saw it coming but refused to understand it Why it happened to us, I couldn't handle it See I was used to having problems outside Cause when I came home I had a reason to smile But when that stopped, where was I to turn to Didn't trust anybody else to talk to I got weird it affected my life Started with bad thoughts everyday was a fight Kept everything inside, never talked about it I put on my mask like everything's alright Between the age of thirteen to nineteen Drama all around and I got caught up in between, shit But days passed I got through it all But sometimes I remember it all so