She's Always There-Trembling Blue Stars

I've lived with this longing for over a year She's always with me, she's always there My first thought on waking, last before sleeping And I just can't see I'll ever be free of her And I just can't see myself ever thinking it's not A waste we're apart How I wish she couldn't live without me The way that she now can And the way I can't give up hope completely What does she make of that? I guess it must try I guess it must try Her patience so But I hope that as well She understands how How I can't let go And there are still times, still times when I Think that she only will save me And I know that's hardly a fair thing to think I know how unfair that is of me Of me, of me I want to be happy again Something that she made me I want to be happy again And I'm so afraid I never will be I found and I lost the one I found and I lost the one I found and I lost the one I've lived with this longing for over a year She's always with me, she's always there My first thought on waking, the last before sleeping And I just can't see I'll ever be free of her