Scared-Jarren Benton/OnCue/Big Rube

I'm scared, I'm scared of living, I'm scared of dying I'm scared of falling, I'm scared of flying, I'm scared of failure, I'm scared of trying I'm scared, I'm scared of losing my kids Suppressing all of my emotions, scared I might flip and lose my bread Nigga I'm scared, I'm scared this drinking might take control Becoming so co-dependent, losing my soul, just thought that I should let you know that I'm scared, I'm scared of turning out like my daddy Don't harbor no hard feelings, he may've made mistakes, but still glad the n***a had me I'm scared, I'm scared my grandma gon' pass away Any day could be her last, I tell her stay strong and f**k what the doctors say I'm scared, I'm scared that God don't exist I'm scared of that dark place I used reside when I ain't had shit Nigga I'm scared that me and my mom will never get close Success can be so scary especially when failure's all that I know I'm scared that my wife gon' end up leaving me Cause I get shut down so easily, now I can see why you don't believe in me Cause I'm scared I've been livin' like a stranger in my own head lately Running out of gas, now go ahead and take me Look at this monster, yeah this is what you make me So I scream from the top of my lungs Top of my lungs Cause I can barely breathe no more air I can barely, I can barely breathe, no more I'm scared, but ain't scared of none of y'all f**k niggas I'm scared of gettin' my heart broken, I'm sorry that's why I don't f**k wit' ya I'm scared of love, I'm scared of pain, I'm scared of music, I'm scared of fame I'm scared of f**king up my kids psychologically, now who's to blame? I'm scared I might die alone, some days I might cry alone I walk along these empty roads, scared I might not make it back home I'm scared I might lose another friend, I'm scared struggle and sufferin' I'm scared of my insecurities, but they always there like I'm stuck with them I'm scared to die over nuttin, I'm scared to stand up for something I'm scared of what you might think of me, I find comfort using this substance At night I'm scared to go to sleep cause I don't wanna have another nightmare I'm scared if everything fell apart and I was hurt you wouldn't be right there And I'm scared, Lord help me overcome fears It's sunshine after tears, I've been afraid for so many years And I apologise for anything I've done and pray hard to family and peers But I'm a f**kin' man and I'll be goddamed if I'ma drown in all of these fears Nigga who's scared? I've been livin' like a stranger in my own head lately Running out of gas, now go ahead and take me Look at this monster, yeah this is what you make me So I scream from the top of my lungs Top of my lungs Cause I can barely breathe no more air I can barely, I can barely breathe, no more I'm petrified I don't like this feeling, gotta rectify it This fight or flight like open mics, when safety's off and I'm next to fire Livin' scared's livin' dead, f**k being pathetic, I remain kinetic Steady move forward while trending up, but greater heights mean harder falls Ain't gotta run down no waterfalls, tryna master fear when you hear the call Overstand above two-step it up, we can break the bank with these bouncing heads If you say you can't you already lost to depressing thoughts, it'll drive a wedge Between you and success, don't see you're blessed How can you count what you can't percieve? Fear and loathing's just evil clothing, our core is good, but we don't believe We deserve the best and I serve the best by giving you what we can't retrieve This life we live is a precious fight, don't take the punches, gotta bob and weave Bodies can bust but the mind will snap if we fall into their traps kill our belief I've been livin' like a stranger in my own head lately Running out of gas, now go ahead and take me Look at this monster, yeah this is what you make me So I scream from the top of my lungs Top of my lungs Cause I can barely breathe no more air I can barely, I can barely breathe, no more