Bug-onoma

I think I have a little bug inside my head. It comes like many times before, it makes me sad. Me and my bug we're so attached, but I don't know how long it'll last. He is my friend, I love my friend. I know it well, so when it comes I am prepared His wish is my command, I wish that some day it will end There were times it was gone, I felt I was my own god Till it came and then again, I wasn't free I can not tell, if it is me, inside my head A virus that controls the engine and it turns into a stormy weather, fog and clouds that blocks my view When it comes every once in a while It shuts my lightened eyes and cracks my smile I fight the sickness that disturbs my peace I shout my silence out A parasite that brings me down I wonder how long I could fight it I... I thought it was a part of me I can not tell, if it is me, inside my head A virus that controls the engine and it turns into A stormy weather, fog and clouds that block my view Oh, my little bug, it makes me feel like I'm someone else I'm starting to believe I'm someone else And all these things that only makes me feel worse I sacrifice myself for someone else that I think is me WHY? I SACRIFICED MY HAPPYNESS FOR SOMEONE ELSE I THOUGHT IS ME Maybe it's just me It's just me