Surface-aesthetic perfection

It's become clear that no one knows I'm coming apart See, pride means nothing when you're crawling on the ground If only you'd see, for once in your life I fall, seem to replace a life Paralyzed by apathy, we fall down Can't seem to deny all the things that destroy me Threatened by a common delusion A misplaced sense of immunity brought down Why such abuse on me? Because, you see, I ask for it I ask for it I don't care, it doesn't matter You won't need it anyway I can't feel, I don't believe it It won't numb all the pain I don't care, it doesn't matter You won't need it anyway I can't feel, I don't believe it This won't take you from your place to die I thought things would improve with time Pathetic notions from a broken man Let go, detach from ties that bind Just scatter, carry on Leave behind your worthless solution Try to accept what you cannot be Why not just give up and waste away? At least on the surface, everything is fine