My Friends-Silence 4

I was so lost in my pain, fear was melting my brain, I was counting the days to insanity, I was afraid to move myself Afraid to hurt myself, more than I had until that day Everything I believed in, everything I fought for Was now underneath my feet and my heart beat Was so gone, couldn't be felt by anyone So alone it gave me the creeps My drugs got me in bed went up to my head And I really don't wanna depend So I'll stick to My friends and my friends and my car and my friends My friends and my friends and my cards and my friends Martini until the end Play pool again Never thought woyuld be like this No one told me it would be like this I'm amazed I'm amazed with myself And my brain and my pain And my pain and my veins Are delivering it to my health My self-confidence was broken while my trust was taken And it left me with an empty life and this knife Rests on the middle of me bed, I think in all the things she said Close my eyes and sleep All these drugs in my head, it seems I'm already dead And I really don't want to depend So I'll stick to ... Can't smoke anymore can't drink anynmore, still I do it, I do it again Lost everything I had, Far from mum, far from dad I thank God for my good, good friends But where's this God that I mention? Where is He right now? As I die as slowly as I can? All my plans, went down the hole My life has no goal, and I wonder if this is worth it But my friends took my hand Helped me to lift myself again And that's why I really love