Beyond My Control-Anja Garbarek

It happens that someone knocks at my door And the whole house starts to shake So that it gets really hard to stand up And even worse to walk I usually fall down on the floor And I stay there until that someone decides to leave And the house calms down And I look through the curtains To see if he would regret To see if he would try again It happens that someone calls me on the phone Then my heart gets so scared That it jumps right up into my throat! I swallow like crazy Hoping my heart will glide back down So I can talk to that someone Maybe talk to a friend But it is too late It is beyond my control If I don't open up the door It is beyond my control If I don't answer your calls I'm not to blame. It isn't my fault It was you that made my heart shake It was you that made my heart jump And it happens that I take a walk outside Just to get some nice fresh air And it happens that I see someone I knew A long, long time ago Then I just seem to disappear Becoming one with a wall Becoming one with a lamp post Becoming one with a tree Becoming one with a street Becoming one with a house Becoming one with a door Becoming one with you all It is beyond my control If I don't open up the door It is beyond my control If I don't answer your calls It is beyond my control If I just seem to disappear It is beyond my control If I am suddenly not here I'm not to blame. It isn't my fault It was you that made my heart shake It was you that made my heart jump It was you that came my way