4:44 (Explicit)-Jay-Z

[ti:4:44] [ar:Jay-Z] [al:4:44] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.00]4:44 (Explicit) - Jay-Z [00:00.26]Written by：Shawn Carter/Dion Wilson/Kanan Keeney [00:00.52]Do I find it so hard [00:04.05] [00:04.93]When I know in my heart [00:09.46]I'm letting you down everyday [00:13.46] [00:14.89]Letting you down everyday [00:20.53]Why do I keep on running away [00:27.27] [00:55.78]Look [00:56.19] [00:56.82]I apologize often womanize [00:59.49]Took for my child to be born [01:00.89]See through a woman's eyes [01:02.18]Took for these natural twins to believe in miracles [01:04.89]Took me too long for this song [01:06.32]I don't deserve you I harass you out in Paris [01:09.98] [01:10.61]Please come back to Rome you make it home [01:12.40] [01:13.56]We talked for hours when you were on tour [01:15.32] [01:15.85]Please pick up the phone pick up the phone [01:17.68] [01:18.90]Said don't embarrass me instead of be mine [01:20.69] [01:21.54]That was my proposal for us to go steady [01:23.39] [01:24.27]That was your 21st birthday you mature faster than me [01:27.99]I wasn't ready so I apologize [01:30.75]I've seen the innocence leave your eyes [01:32.77]I still mourn this death I apologize for all the stillborns [01:36.85]'Cause I wasn't pressing your body wouldn't accept it [01:39.77]I apologize to all the woman whom I [01:42.59]Toyed with you emotions because I was emotionless [01:45.15]I apologize 'cause at your best you are love [01:48.77] [01:49.53]And because I fall short of what I say I'm all about [01:52.93]Your eyes leave with the soul that your body once housed [01:55.34] [01:55.84]And you stare blankly into space [01:57.56]Thinking of all the time you wasted in on all this basic sh*t [02:00.97]So I apologize [02:03.85] [02:17.67]I'm never gonna treat you never gonna treat you like I should [02:27.94] [02:36.23]I apologize our love was one for the ages and I contained us [02:41.82]And all this ratchet sh*t and we more expansive now [02:44.58]Meant to cry and die alone in these mansions [02:46.65]Or sleep with our back turned [02:48.90]We're supposed to vacay 'til our backs burn [02:51.54]We're supposed to laugh 'til our heart stops [02:54.36]And then we end a space with a dark stop [02:56.97]And let love light the way [02:58.86] [02:59.52]Like the men before me I cut off my nose to spite my face [03:02.42]I never wanted another woman to know [03:03.92]Something about me that you didn't know [03:06.11]I promised I cried I couldn't hold [03:07.79] [03:08.60]I suck at love I think I need a do over [03:10.84]I will be emotionally available if I invited you over [03:13.43] [03:14.13]I stew over what if you over my sh*t [03:18.65] [03:24.57]I'm never gonna treat you never gonna treat you like I should [03:32.35] [03:35.41]And if my children knew I don't even know what I would do [03:40.17] [03:41.07]If they ain't look at me the same [03:42.78] [03:43.70]I would prolly die with all the shame [03:45.43] [03:45.97]You did what with who [03:47.36] [03:47.94]What good is a ménage à trois when you have a soulmate [03:51.42]You risked that for Blue [03:52.88] [03:54.29]If I wasn't a superhero in your face [03:56.25] [03:56.83]My heart breaks for the day I had to explain my mistakes [03:59.52] [04:00.40]And the mask goes away and Santa Claus is fake [04:04.43] [04:05.86]And you go online and see [04:07.78]For Blue's tooth the tooth fairy didn't pay [04:09.76] [04:28.75]I'm never gonna treat you like I should