It Kills Me to Have to Be Alive-The Smith Street Band

[ti:It Kills Me to Have to Be Alive] [ar:The Smith Street Band] [al:More Scared Of You Than You Are Of Me] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.00]It Kills Me to Have to Be Alive - The Smith Street Band [00:04.32]Something about the Summer I didn't cope with well [00:10.03] [00:11.64]And every time I walked in this room [00:14.61]In the same spot tripped and felland I check my [00:21.82]Spit for blood [00:23.83]And I do not call enough [00:27.76] [00:28.52]I spill my guts for money [00:32.74]But you don't find my jokes that funny [00:37.38] [00:40.76]There's something in [00:41.56]The tone of my voice [00:43.72]That makes you question everything I say [00:48.04]And I will never learn to just shut my mouth [00:52.63]And bury things our parents' way [00:56.72]And you said that I should quit what I fear [01:01.69]And I know I just wanted it to be my [01:04.94]Idea [01:05.69]And you said that I do not exist [01:10.21]And I know at least now we agree on it [01:14.98] [01:18.35]And I'll keep telling myself [01:22.21]That I'm not just here for everyone else [01:26.57] [01:27.13]Make plans for birthdays that I don't care if I [01:33.91]Celebrate [01:35.79]And I'm sorry that I can't be what everybody wants [01:43.22]From me [01:43.91] [01:44.51]I do not feel that I am loved [01:48.73]But I do not reach out enough [01:52.79] [01:55.38]But I'm reaching up [01:56.56] [02:10.94]I'll let this all fall down around me [02:17.23]Yeah I'll let this all fall down around me [02:23.99]Yeah I'll let this all fall down around me [02:36.77] [02:40.53]And I'll fail but at least I'll try [02:44.53]It's the most I can hope for most of every [02:48.44]Time [02:49.20]It kills me to have to be alive [02:53.00]It's killing me to have to be alive