Father's Day-Q-Unique

i'm sittin in the room with a knife in my hand with a plan all night to take the life of a man a soul with a dark heart and the devil in his eyes provider and father figure, high level of disguise he had the neighborhood fooled with his fatherly act they didn't know how he left us in a poverty trap didn't know his angry fist went across mommies face or his two timing ways left my mother a disgrace no one knew how he put fear into his family his temper angered rage was damn near insanity tragically it came to this it's ether him, or the blade cut across my vein that would drain my wrist tonight, and end to all the pain and fear and the csi is left clueless and my name is clear too many unanswered prayers and i lost faith rapidly scream to the sky, why did god turn his back on me hook (2x's) i killed a man on fathers day, god forbid me, i sent a man on his way, god forgive me lord have mercy on my soul, when the hurts beyond control the demons in my mind are gonna haunt me till i'm cold 2nd verse do you know what it's like to have fear sit in the pit of ya stomach with severe punishment as if he loved it my heart races as i grab the knife tighter and pray for the strength that i can make his life expire i'm tense and on the edge and my strife is dire and to protect myself i live my life as a liar it was all those f**kin' beatings that gave me lies and he thought that beatingme up would make me wise and i got smacked if i stood brave he'd puff w**d in my face screamin' behave and get good grades the wounds reflected through the mirror in the bathroom and i could'nt connect with anyone sittin' in the classroom you f**ked me up bad man, and you chuckle like you glad smile across ya face but i'll have the last laugh it's your 1st born with a heart full of enmity holdin the shank razor sharp kill the enemy hook (2x's) i killed a man on fathers day, god forbid me, i sent a man on his way, god forgive me lord have mercy on my soul, when the hurts beyond control the demons in my mind are gonna haunt me till i'm cold 3rd verse: my anger's getting the best of me while the devil posses the rest of me my little brother's an accessory i've been robbed of my childhood and self esteem a life limited by a selfish feind manipulated my mind and said mother was worthless when he's home from work i'm not glad i'm nervous it's fear of that unknown momment when his anger can snap and he can no longer control it or hold it vengence is mine despite what sayeth the lord it's the end of the line and i smite and slay with a sword the kitchen knife spits his life on to the bedroom floor his twitchin life slips and then no more it's finally finished, i found freedom in the form of a fallen demon sit and explore a reason ya had a chance to redeem ya self and it got away and i laugh at you bleedin f**ker, happy fathers day hook (2x's) i killed a man on fathers day, god forbid me, i sent a man on his way, god forgive me lord have mercy on my soul, when the hurts beyond control the demons in my mind are gonna haunt me till i'm cold