My Saddle Is Waitin' (C'mon Ju-Des Ark

I wanna die with a halo on my head For all my friends I need to find a place to lay low Where I can learn to be good to them I wanna saddle up at sunrise After the death of a dusty night Oh, in a cabin in the Carolines Where ain't nobody gonna find me Oh to be perfect for the ones we love I gave it a shot, but I am not And I never was If I keep dragging all these anchors Across my scars I ain't never gonna heal at all You know you died with a halo on your head For all your friends If you had asked, we would have said so That you had learned to be good to them Oh to be perfect for the ones we love I gave it a shot, but I am not And I never was If I keep dragging all these anchors Across my scars I ain't never gonna heal at all I know I'm dying alone I know that my drinking Makes this hospice feel like a home And I know I'm using drugs every morning When I wake up To quiet the symphonies of lovers Who sing so sweetly to me They will sing sunshine And this is what they said I'd love to keep on loving you, my dear But you're already dead