Masochist-Tonedeff

[ti:Masochist] [ar:Tonedeff] [al:Archetype] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.00]Masochist (受虐狂) - Tonedeff [00:10.31]Everything happens for a reason [00:12.26]And my reason to be's to see sh*t happen for a reason [00:14.67]One event to the [00:15.29]Next [00:15.59]It's like I'm stuck at the box office with every second my clock tosses [00:18.35]Into my face smacked with a case of fate wasted and lost causes [00:21.05]I've been mocked and accosted [00:22.48]To the point that I got nauseous [00:23.96]Though my flow's been plugged enough to stop faucets [00:25.45]I've thought often about tossing this awesome gift to the wind [00:28.42]And start crossing over to [00:29.46]Sin with this intention to blend that [00:30.78]I get from [00:31.26]Within [00:31.46]I've protected my skin with a thin [00:32.63]Layer of pride and showmanship [00:34.17]But both my coats are ripped and [00:35.26]I can't seem to decide on clothes that fit [00:36.69]Supposing this rap sh*t actually pays off [00:39.06]I'm wondering if it'll all be [00:40.24]Worth it [00:40.89]Cause this is what everyone in my life has ever been hurt with [00:43.10]This curse this evil urge [00:44.35]I feel for verses [00:45.40]Is one of my life's real perversions [00:46.97]I seal my curtains when I write [00:48.55]I feel disturbance from the light [00:49.86]I deal with dirt and yet [00:50.76]I want to heal the earth and peel the surface to [00:52.64]Reveal it's perfect [00:53.74]And words I wield with purpose [00:54.99]And yet nobody follows the plot [00:56.83]They rather hear me rock off of the top [00:58.74]There's pitfalls in my socks [00:59.67]So I walk with caution [01:00.89]Somebody halt the auction [01:01.90]Cause my soul's on sale [01:02.90]And I thought I lost it [01:03.91]If I gotta fight for the rest of my life [01:05.76]Then I'm gon' turn the other cheek [01:08.90]Yeah [01:09.46]Cause I hate the way you hurt me [01:11.42]But I can't get enough of your love [01:13.98]Love [01:14.40]And who the hell am I supposed to be [01:16.35]A holy priest holding a rosary [01:18.07]Some type of bold stoic Moses of poetry [01:20.45]Should I be holding heat to pose for the streets [01:22.57]A total phoney If I said my name was ' [01:24.40]Tony' would you know it's me [01:25.48]Supposedly T-O-N-E flow with ease over these bolder beats [01:28.71]But the flow's too cheap to pay for groceries [01:31.00]And in the throws of grief I choke and breathe [01:33.02]Loaded with my parents hopes and dreams [01:34.65]Yet I don't know if we both [01:35.83]Believe [01:36.39]I scope the scene and [01:37.33]I'm watching these bills build up [01:38.75]I'm nice with a day-job these niggaz write [01:40.37]All day and still suck [01:41.54]And yet they fill clubs [01:42.63]Sell a trillion and feel [01:43.95]I kill dubs [01:44.70]But I don't have the mills to pay for real pub [01:46.77]My chilled love melts on occasion [01:48.82]Cause brainwashed niggaz only feelin' [01:50.00]My track if Clue or Flex will play it [01:51.95]Who you expect to say this sh*t if I don't [01:53.72]What Cause I don't wanna be extorted [01:54.93]By some cat who lets cash determine [01:56.57]His playlists [01:57.12]I'm searching for ways in [01:58.39]But entrances are sparse when you're hard to [02:00.20]Market [02:00.71]F**k art cause thugs aren't the smartest targets [02:02.46]And I'm not abstract enough [02:03.96]So it seems backpackers are acting up [02:05.56]And I thought it was half the battle [02:06.80]Just to have the love [02:07.73]And pack a truckload of skills [02:09.10]Politics are I'll and yo it's real [02:10.82]It seems I'm cruising [02:11.53]And they're still using these crooked stones for [02:13.31]Wheels [02:13.85]And when you know the deal [02:14.81]It doesn't evoke the most appeal [02:16.09]Like stolen Kosher Meals [02:17.19]Lemme propose a toast to heal [02:18.39]If I gotta fight for the rest of my life [02:20.39]Then I'm gon' turn the other cheek [02:23.54]Yeah [02:24.03]Cause I hate the way you hurt me [02:26.07]But I can't get enough of your love [02:28.55] [02:29.17]If I gotta fight for the rest of my life [02:31.17]Then I'm gon' turn the other cheek [02:34.20]Yeah [02:34.71]Cause I hate the way you hurt me [02:36.71]But I can't get enough of your love [02:39.53]I've sacrificed so many facets of life just to achieve this [02:42.62]From Love and definitive reason to trust in agreements [02:44.77]My family suffered a grievance when we discussed I was leaving [02:47.47]Seeming substituted for tunnel vision [02:49.20]And it probably crushed all their [02:50.62]Feelings [02:50.88]There's something appeasing in the corruption of demons [02:53.13]Feeding me vehemently lustful delusions of bucks from succeeding [02:56.24]But times up months it's exceeded [02:57.81]Peeling the scabs off of cuts that are bleeding [02:59.67]Knowing I ain't had it as tough as Jesus [03:01.86]This sh*t doesn't compete or even touches what he did [03:03.97]But will I be signed by 33 [03:05.41]Cause my teens were f**king depleted [03:07.09]Blessed with a gift [03:07.84]Equipped to assist in the destruction of heathens [03:10.16]But please would god really want me snuffing emcees then [03:12.06]Ha [03:12.71]I must be conceited right [03:14.01]Well I'm balanced out by the lack of self-esteem [03:15.32] [03:15.92]I've felt since I've learned how to read and write [03:17.62]Over compensation spelled relief [03:18.87]When the rhyme schemes are tight [03:20.11]Then I feel the weight of a cheapened life [03:21.57]When 5 000 people die [03:22.72]Sob Sob Feel bad for the rap artist [03:24.78]But pour your soul into something for responses [03:26.59]That's half-hearted [03:27.66]Terminate relationships on the basis of past hardships [03:30.37]And then you'll see [03:31.05]Why every review's like another line on my scarred [03:33.23]Wrist [03:33.76]This light-hearted voice becomes jailed by the darkness [03:35.95]It's impossible to trap my lips when I have to spit [03:38.44]I try to swim away [03:39.46]But I keep getting dragged back in this [03:41.46]Come to find my arms automatically swimming backwards [03:43.84]If I gotta fight for the rest of my life [03:45.76]Then I'm gon' turn the other cheek [03:48.89]Yeah [03:49.44]Cause I hate the way you hurt me [03:51.39]But I can't get enough of your love [03:54.24]If I gotta fight for the rest of my life [03:56.40]Then I'm gon' turn the other cheek [03:59.50]Yeah [03:59.97]Cause I hate the way you hurt me [04:02.08]But I can't get enough of your love [04:04.94]If I gotta fight for the rest of my life [04:07.24]Then I'm gon' turn the other cheek [04:10.15]Yeah [04:10.82]Cause I hate the way you hurt me [04:12.57]But I can't get enough of your love