My Dear Helen-Andy Shauf

[ti:My Dear Helen] [ar:Andy Shauf] [al:The Bearer of Bad News] [by:] [offset:0] [00:00.50]My dear Helen it's been a while since we've talked [00:04.30] [00:07.97]Charlie and I haven't been up to a whole lot [00:12.97] [00:15.77]He's slowing down a little and my knee's acting up [00:20.22] [00:21.06]Yeah we're quite a pair of geezers [00:23.55]Moving slower than molasses [00:25.52]You'd be laughing if you saw us [00:28.40]You always loved to tease [00:31.16] [00:34.25]I dug up an old bottle of your raspberry wine [00:38.64] [00:42.03]So I'm slouched out on the [00:43.70]Porch-swing just taking my time [00:46.41] [00:50.02]My mind keeps turning out these pictures of you [00:54.80]You were dancing in the kitchen [00:57.90]And I was enjoying my view [01:00.24] [01:01.20]Oh Charlie was squirming [01:02.82]Just two steps behind you [01:06.73] [01:09.46]My dear Helen do you remember when you said [01:13.93] [01:16.60]That you'd be waiting at the gates [01:18.73]So you could sneak me in [01:20.86] [01:24.73]Well it sure was funny [01:26.61]But it still caught in my throat [01:28.95] [01:30.00]And when I think about it now [01:32.10]It still makes me choke [01:34.27] [01:35.24]And I wonder if those gates [01:37.47]Would ever open up for me [01:39.76] [01:43.87]Helen my dear I do have something to tell [01:48.04] [01:51.50]I don't know how to start so I guess I just will [01:55.81] [01:58.81]See these nights have been hot [02:01.52]It's that muggy sort of air [02:04.00] [02:04.52]Doesn't let me get to sleep [02:06.48]So I usually just lie there [02:10.18]On top of my quilt with Charlie by my feet [02:14.80] [02:18.25]Last night as I laid there frustrated and tired [02:21.93] [02:25.77]I was sat up in my bed [02:27.73]By the hens starting wild [02:30.15] [02:33.19]I thought 'that fox is back again [02:36.02]He's gonna rob me blind [02:38.09]I don't know how he gets in [02:40.70]But I'd better make him fly' [02:43.43]So I took my leaning rifle out the door [02:47.45] [02:51.89]I fired off a shot aiming far into the heat [02:55.79] [02:59.96]And as soon as it was flying [03:01.87]I felt weak in my knees [03:04.54] [03:07.61]I heard shoes turning gravel [03:09.73]And then tires spitting rocks [03:12.81]I heard a gasp for air [03:15.26]And my stomach tied in knots [03:17.59] [03:18.59]Charlie started whining [03:20.29]With his tail between his legs [03:22.67] [03:23.43]We wandered out slow [03:24.99]But my heart was breakin' ribs [03:28.00]I couldn't hear nothing [03:29.75]And there was a girl lying twisted [03:33.02]My hands were trembling [03:35.76]And I felt that she was limp [03:37.28] [03:38.09]Her pulse wasn't tapping [03:40.40]So I felt sick to my stomach [03:43.29] [03:43.80]Charlie was frozen [03:45.25]So I went for a shovel [03:47.67]And I buried her body [03:50.30]I didn't know what else to do [03:52.76]If I'd only aimed a little higher [03:55.87]If I'd only thought before I fired [03:58.42]I hope God can forgive me [04:00.74]I hope you forgive me too [04:02.95]I'm just a tired old man just waiting to join you [04:07.48]So here I am slouched on this old porch swing [04:12.22] [04:13.70]Thinking about heaven thinking about everything [04:16.99] [04:17.70]So be waiting by those gates [04:20.29]You might need to sneak me in [04:22.47] [04:23.25]I don't know how they feel about us accidental killers [04:27.71] [04:29.16]I don't know how they feel about us tired old men [04:32.96] [04:34.11]I don't know how they feel about us tired [04:36.76]Old murdering men [04:38.57] [04:44.25]I don't know how they feel about us tired [04:47.68]Old murdering men [04:50.11] [04:50.82]My Dear Helen - Andy Shauf