The Difference Engine-Dam

Out of ordinary perception Mortal words appear animal Obsessed: fixated on survival Notions that languish in the folds Inhuman worlds are shaken A few timeless hours - outer inner realms Directly apprehended, unconditionally This experience is mine Boredom - what's your excuse? So shaped in the hearths our lives Your eyes through others For a beat out of time You listen Through fields of the world every night The implacable voice of unreason Of the same alien doubt Enduring, demonic, human Possessed It speaks Disturbs me Open my eyes Feel the absurd spectre Examine Thoughts of one's own death - of demise That will not be mentioned Fear - prepare to re-enter Tectonic shifting sum Fleeting Fever reeling - turning higher Persistence of false memory Stare us into the deep dark void Un-constricting reality Fed on the ashes of what I thought was a lie Fevered Pre-scient illusion struggling Infused with meaning beyond reach Sublime the catharsis required Feeding the illusion Keep the mind away From what mattered Until there was no difference Between laughter and weeping Between the nodes of his chain Of desperate moments Between laughter and weeping More real than the sun